cityhunter

HELLOS!

im posting on the last day of the year 2011.

well its amazing365 1/4 days have actually passed.

there are so many things that happens in a year.

well i just finished city hunter 2nd last episode.

i was holding in so much and the episode was so sad. :'(

Oh my hate that lingering feeling that is stuck in you even when the show ends.

For the past few days i have been spending quality time with cousins

its like finally.

i have been waiting for that feeling that the 9 of us had together to return.

love it when we have conversations on how gerald stinks and our boyfriends/girlfriend or how naggy our parents are and our bowling sessions or disruptive pool session and finally how we watch running man together as we tie each others hair into a beautiful braids and our DJ hero session before falling asleep together. i always love that feeling. its like having an extended family ;)and im so thankful for that. But as we are growing up, we tend to lose these feelings bit by bit as we put our minds into other matters. Still, time spent was worthwhile and im glad we had the chalet and this opportunity ;D

oh yeah and i have beens searching for jobs these days.

:D well my agent was really helpful and

i cant help but feel really excited when i listen to the hospital job description

it feels less like a job but something i wanna spend my time fruitfully on.

hope all goes well and i can get the one that i want :)

But in the midst of searching for job i felt that i let dow friends around me too.

in the bathroom i would start thinking if my decision was right or wrong

and choosing to go for job interview was more important than friends.

i know i dont feel this way but sometimes it cant be help

the feeling of letting them down i never want to let it happen again

because i hurt when i hurt them :(

the worst part is that great understanding that makes me guilty for flying plane during the last minute. AIGO. :(

well i cant go on and on cause i have a count down date ;)

and this is the most important thing of the year.a

You know after so many fights, we sort of became better these few days

i hope i can control my temper and manage my emotions better

and let today end beautifully as i welcome the new year.

i wish everyone around me a better year ahead and remember to always be happy! and of course live everyday like there is no tomorrow. Must always love the ones around you :D

Ending off here:) i hope i will still have them(family, cousins,wifeys,sec sch friends,jc friends,metta family,fel,alex,jx,jy) around me for years ahead !

bye(;

Back to December

i think 2011 december is the most fruitful month i have ever spent :D

1. prom

2.metta retreat :)

3.Hong kong trip

4.meet ups+ teoheng.

Whee. so many things are happening and my pathetic brain often mix up dates and events.

need a planner :)

well, the kind of life that i have been yearning for has finally arrived

glad it will get even more hectic from now on.

Felt like i got enlighten in certain stuff over the holidays too.

except i have yet started working out oh man :(

lol got to sleep. :(

outing with the metta peeps are awesome.

girls and guys are so cute surprised that the outing would even last and be successful despite age gap!

imma happy kid except for one thing :.

Fatigue

played too much!

well, prom just ended. i preferred the secondary school one cause there was a greater level of fun.

but at least, we had post prom this year among my closer peers :D

It was insane, the crazy snapping of photos with people i have never had a conversation with.

Awkward moments, pretty smiles and flashing of lights.

Lol thats how my prom went :)

Afterwards, we proceeded to a club.

it was pretty insane and scary cause it was all of our first time.

It was really really loud. haha i was deaf when we came out. ;x

moved a little cause it was really packed.

by the time, we reached xing's house it was like 4am already -.-

and the guys even initiated breakfast at 7.

of course that didnt come true.

after bathing and torturous removal of make up it was like 5.30

and we slept like pigs till 10.

had to make my way home to help out with the furnitures :D

lol now im satisfied with my room except for my wardrobe.

will be mia-ing for a week to go for some really interesting camp

hope to be a better person when im back :>

need my beauty sleep :(

SO GROUCHY NOW GRR.

TOO wordy

clearing books

fat fish tail

before taking the ride ;x

its prom tomorrow!

i dont know why but im starting to feel nervous

what if my dress isnt nice what if my heels hurts what if my makeup fails what if my hairstyle is bad

Lol tons and tons of what ifs ;x

nevermind i will just go with the flow.

Sleeping soon! :)

havent touch guitar for days :( guilty. haha

插班生 The Freshman 《逞强》Official MV - HQ

cant help it but love it so much.the live is even more awesome ! oh myyy

Fights

geez i really hate them.
just had a tiff witha friend
Okay its rare to fight with a friend i mustsay.
If a fight is possiblei guess it must reallyreallybe someone close
Because once u know that the fight is over, u will make it up with him/her and be best friends all over again just likefamily members. fights never last.

but the agony of going through it is really bad
there is like stages in fights.
for e.g feeling pissed at firs, tfollowed by hurling whatever bad words that comes to ur mind and the ending is always the pang of guilt or regret after saying what u shouldnt and thinking if only i could hold it in, finally trying to relieve the awkwardness and burying the hatchet. :/
Uh but i realised fights are like redundant
Through them people get to express themselve better by directly approaching the problem
but fights do not necessarily ensure that the problem is being solved.
In the end who decides whos right and wrong, the lines are not clearly defined
and both parties have to reflect and question/doubt themselve whether what they had done wasright
for me, it always ends up ina mess.i can never draw a concrete solution and hence solve theproblem causing it to erupt all over again. But the question is how would i know if im right or wrong. if only life is like an exam, i would have answers to every single problems that are posed to me so i wouldnt get it wrong.haiyo i always think but it doesnt get me anywhere :/ damn stupid right. guess exams are easier than problems in life haha !
Even so,shall still try mybest to search for an answerandi will keep trying till i get theright one
and i know iwill cause u have to do it right if itsfor someone worth it .

eekks my keyboard islike super laggyand the space bar button is screwed sopardon ifu see words that are unfamiliar or unusually long.
haha feeling really emotional today.

and anothermatter i dont understand how people can become so rich.
I alwaysstare at the terrace houses when buses drive past them and would oftenwonder how long would it take to buy or built such a house what kind of job would u havetotake up to afford such a house and will the owner be happy when they get to own such houses because pursuit for wealth is never ending isnt it tiring? and is it even a happything?truthfully i guess it will but after a while as all humans would do we get tired of what wehaveand would yearn for more.i wouldnt want to fall into thatvicious cycle. it willbe a constanreminder ! be happy andsufficient. hmmbut i really love semi-detachhouses and wannahave one next time. seeeeeeee im too self contradictory all the time. HAIS. thatswhy bu neng cheng da shi!

good night :>
shopping tomorrow ^^

WALK walk and walk

These days i haven't been eating but walking walking and more walking!

i think my feet is going to fall off soon.

well, i must say all the walking is worth it :D

After the exams we wanted try something crazy and so yeah we went ahead with our plan.

we took the reverse bungee at clark quay. it wasn't really scary and the best part was the scream.

scream of relieve. we were like tourist taking beautiful pictures of the city and crys came to stay for the night. We blog window shop like mad till 1 plus. dresses were beautiful but too large for me ;(

During the second day the girls were shopping for clothes with the class guys and i didn't know that shopping for guys clothes can be really really fun too. The clothes are interesting and there is like so many layers to wear and really expensive!! still the orchard lights were beautiful and the birds were chirping away like cheep cheep cheep :)

and today i roamed Ikea and i think i can remember the sections and the floor plan already!

cant wait for my furnitures to come!!!!!!!!! :>

wonderful and more importantly it was within budget !

so not ready for prom! :x

You are the Apple of my eye

^ the handsome male lead that i have been talking about xD

helloooo

been curbing my temptations to return to blog ;>

this week has been a fulfilling week

i have so much so much to tell my mum who is gone for the week to cambodia to offer her service :D

but fret not she will be returning tomorrow :)

Firstly, caught this movie this week.

everyone has been singing praises of the show.

At first i thought it was like any other romance story that has no meaning to it.

but luckily i caught it and never regretted it :D

hehe the cast was great yeah handsome & sweet

and the movie was humorous in a dirty way HAHA.

i love it so much sosososooso much :D

like many youtubers had commented best Asian love story ever :)

bittersweet is the best word to describe the movie and of course its definitely not within your expectations. Most importantly, the chemistry was great

k moving on, its like 2 mcqs left :D

everyone has been going on and on about what to do after Alevels.

haha Glad that i have a list too. at least studying aint everything to me.

well i have high aims for the upcoming 8 months

HAHA i think it would be even more stressful as compared to the preparation for Alevels

But if u strive to become a better person u know you got to put in the effort if not how did anyone become famous or what today.

dont worry i aint aiming to become the next sungha jung tomorrow.

i just want to become better in my playing and pick up what i had always wanted while keeping fit and not losing touch of my favourite sport -swimming !

thats about it. Of course the best parts are - shopping/dates/vacations/camwhoring/COOKING/chalets/bbq? :}

When im equipped with all these i think im ready to receive my results.

well, i have seriously no confidence that i can do well like getting 4As

so to minimize my disappointment ,improving and developing my skills is the only way to cushion my unhappiness. Because by then, when i receive my results... even if i cant study, i can still do this,this and this. yeap i dont wanna feel handicap and helpless like studying is the only thing i can do and yet i can't do it well. I will crumble if that becomes a fact! woes of a nerdy student ;<

having thoughts of dying my hair. :)

will have to give more thoughts about it :D

o NO i cant wear heels like serious :<

PROM die ah!

and i realise katy perry is beautiful in her mv ;) she can pull off the goth look lol.

i have to wait for 13 days :(

till then i shall continue to lead my live to the fullest while you return.

sungha shall top my list for the month and bigbang will take the second place :D

Eighteen

Being eighteen isn't as big as what i have thought it would be.

but i was showered with tons (not a lot but sufficient) of love messages ,especially those whom i never bother to wish :/ due to EXCUSES AND EXCUSES. not forgetting the present flooding across my table as it float ad mist of my papers. and of course the day well spent with loved ones as well as the midnight surprise ;) what more could i ask for ?

im a lucky chap :)

its sweet being Eighteen, i guess :D

although i was only given 3 hours or maybe 5 to rest :)

haha its like a week to A's

and a month till it ends.

I bet this month will zoom pass.

I kept trying to predict what would happen in the following month

but to no avail. shall just be down to earth and do whats within my abilities

Shall wake up at 4 to write my gp essay that i owe myself ! hahahah

Real Steel

I know its a crazy time to watch it but i did.

well its farewell today hard to tame the temptation!

Finally got to catch my craving hugh jackman !

i know the show is pretty typical but this is the kind of movies i like

kin ship action packed a little violence and a tinge of romance :D

Its the feeling or take away from the show that i enjoy most.

i love the feeling whereby everthin seems lost and unhopeful at first before things starts to get better

it gives u a strong feeling and the urge to fight :D

yeah so catch it cause

hugh jackman is obviously hot :D

and dakota goyo this lil boy is really something at first i thought it was his emerald green eyes it isnt just that ! he has a flair and knack at talking though feelings can be expressed even better But commendable effort :D

Anyway, sometimes i experience the feeling whereby i feel like crying because i feel too fortunate to have certain people around :D. its a great feeling and it sure give a boost of strength and it really sweetens up hope everyone will get a taste of what i say ;D in short its feeling touched ;D

predators gave me a early present, u dont know how much i love "scrap" book. prettily done with awesome photos :D & thoughtful messages too :D

okay back to chem. HMM i was here to search for DATA BOOKLET and this became my long formual list

:D

ANYWAYS love my CT for treating us to seoul garden and also his Alevel kit.

its beautiful :D

and i see that even BCEEE have a chance of transforming them to AAABA so i guess it means its possible :D

and i can do it too. why not :)

perseverance is not a long race. its made up of many short races :D

lol love my school farewell concert.

Didnt tear me up cause everything wrapped up beautifully

it was a waste to cry

everyone bid their farewells happily :D

Farewell

^2 things can live without :D

CALCULATOR+PHONE+GIRAFFE

Can you believe it.

Its time to say goodbye already. Our farewell is on 17th Oct.

and 2 weeks later A levels will loom upon us.

Okay warned my friends i was going to cry haha.

cause i guess no one can really understand how this 2 years have been like unless you have undergone it.

Many things have happened

and things keep changing as we move on.

i really never want to lead this sort of life ever again yet i know i will miss it fiercely

and forever will be.

and im starting to feel it now already.

this pang of sadness is kind of recurring whenever i think of them.

oh no, im lost what can one do when you know that something is ending soon but you cant stop it. Its like what the last scene of your favourite drama and you never want it to end.

I cant hit the replay button like what i do in movies and books.

i can only keep this piece of memory close with me till it fades one day.

but now it hurts and i didnt know it would be this bad :x

Maybe my hormones are just starting to change -.-

anyways hope my careless-ness would be eradicated one day!

hate it detest it !

haha and i realise whenever i see you all my troubles are blown away its like i'm refreshed and energized and i feel your strength :D good good ^^

Back to my papers :D you don't know how much i love it these days :D

need to learn how to sleep earlier like at 12? o no before that !

Songs of a Humpback Whale

helloooo.

Goodness its like a month to A levels.

How can i not freak out right when my subjects are neither here nor there.

well, my teacher posted me with this question today

haha i was freaking out inside but didnt wanna let her see so tried to brush it off.

:( But there is just so much i can do in a day.

so not readyy!

Its okay i will get there somehow :D

eh, Anyway i realise there aint any motivational songs these days

there are tons of love songs but none that are encouraging and haha applicable to handling problems in life. lol if u guys see any please let me know k

Cause such song lyrics always have a great impact on me be it chi/eng

haha :D

eeks dont know what to do now.

How i wish my hair can just dry in a min so i dont have to contemplate if i should sleep/slack or Study -.-

What Makes You beautiful

• Feel like jotting my thoughts down in point form today so here it goes.

• These days whenever the clock hits 10 my eyelids starts to get heavy and i feel like falling asleep already AT 10PM? way too early. still recovering from prelim attack :/

• I received one of my wifey's cake today :D SHE BAKED IT HERSELF plus plus she added my favourite fruit in it ! Guess what its strawberries ^^ No wonder i taste it and it was really sweet and nice. CAME IN TIME TO SALVAGE MY STARVATION :D

• When i was making crys birthday present today, i stole a pretty photo of the four of us. lol the predators look real cool ^^ love them so much. Crazy bunch of people!

• O ! and i heard jia ying's exam ends tomorrow weeeee that means my kbox date is arriving and jia xin cant wait too .AWESOME.

• A random comment. eeeks dont really like seeing people hmm acquaintance or not even close to it outside. they love to give awkward stares and this OMG is that you face that makes me think and so whats your business. haha so mean right. Guess its just gossip and rumours hate it yet love it sometimes. HAIS ~

Make you feel love

^ i love this photo i thought it was beautifully and candid-ly taken :)

^ what a CUTE COUPLE. ^^

Hello Prelim's officially over

What i had done for the past two days was a blast :)

It was indeed much more fun than the plain talking i had mentioned in my previous post

lol so much more.

sorry jiaying! :D but i went teoheng with my sec school mates to celebrate ed's birthday

i miss TH o no i haven't been there before but i felt a sense of unfamiliarity haha i lost touch of the mic for too long need to go back again soon!! Anyway so angry with m allergy or heat rash what so ever they are like appearing whenever i feel stressor hot ;( eeek such things never happened in the past :( Somethings happening inside my body hahah can feel the changes and most of them are really bad. :(

Okay started on cityhunter yesterday because of tremendous recommendations coming from everyone i cant not catch it right. :D not really hook onto it yet but i must say i love whatever lee min ho wears he is a model for every piece of cloth he is wearing ! i mean i never took notice of guys clothes much in the past but for lee min ho i can totally tell he love his clothes cause he look awesome and comfortable in every single one of them :D haha watching him act reminds a little of Gu jun Pyo lol its so lee min ho extreme hotness but i'm still controlling it well not on berserk mode yet :D hahah and for park min yong pretty and sweet she's every guy's dream! lol i must say goo hara is not a bad bimbo :D she's doing it really well what a pretty irritating lovely brat. and for the second main actor i know him! so i can relate to the show better since he is such a cute young man too :DDD k on my 3rd episode only and i have so many comments to make already! for the next few post i guess u can already expect what i have to say HAHA!

Next, caught Johnny English Reborn yesterday :D

i must say the movie came at the right time. Though the jokes are pretty low level hahah but they do bring joy to viewers and yes it managed to eradicate all the ill feelings that i had accumulated for prelims! so i must thank the movie for providing such a great distressing pill ^^ of course the companions are equally important. haha Went to the sky garden afterwards and it was pretty cause i caught a view of the night lights due to the on going F1 race. Except that i have a complain to make Lol i could barely see anything cause i was too short.i could onl view top of most buildings -_- .yesterday was good stress relieving session!

Later, maybe im going to flea with lah-on and xing jie :D hahahahahahah! of course we have a mission too :D lol hehehehe that means today cant hang out with metta kids already ;( but its okay there is opportunity cost to everything ma. :D. anyways visited H&M, although the comments i heard aint really good but i thought it was fine and it was a better store as compared to others which are ridiculously priced right except the queue was freaking long for the fitting room but i love the fitting room for the cute hangers and heavy curtains and long mirror BUT it made me look so short in whatever i wore :( i guess i really need heels ;( ahaha BAD BAD.

o dear its school tomorrow

and on top of it we are receiving our prelim papers ALREADY!

Yeah heard other schools are still playing their ass off.

I know right cause they are smarter so they have more time, students like us need more time

DONT COMPLAIN HS ^^

Whee enjoying my last day of freedom before i get slaughtered by math tuition teacher, chem tut teacher and my bio teachers. lol

LISTEN up no matter what im going to make sure i get into NUS :D

KNOW what i want, look up about the scholarships already :D

Feels pretty good to have a mini future goal

but not very comfortable to disclose it yet

cause i can see some shocked and dumbfounded faces already

and im not ready to receive that cause im afraid i would be shaken and i would re-think again

so i guess this time :D im gonna keep this dream with me and move towards it !

wow this is really long its like a recount and a longer explanation of what happened :D

i really like my ah gong oh my younger than me in the heart so positive he is everything i wanna be when i grow old one day :D

loveeeeeeeeeeee

life's good ^^

Im happy, please be happy too everyone :D

ALEX

Alex DeLeon, Alex Gaskarth .

i love Alex-es haha :D

they've got great voice, awesome guitar skills and cute too :>

all yx's fault haha :D

o no 1:38 better be sleeping soon ^^

ahh all ready to study for chemistry tomorrow.

Yeah last paper gonna own u :/

o yeah sometimes i think its good to dream be it day dream or night dream

just don't get stuck in them like how i always do.

lol blog's interesting it allows u to express it in your own way in the most comfortable way u want it to be :)

Rants

ON MY LAST EPISODE ALREADYY ;'(

have been indulging chinese songs again :D

Uhh my taste is forever changing. Nothing's stagnant.

For a moment there is bigbang and the next im diving into english songs and today i miss listening to chinese music.

Haha im enjoying all these wide product varieties !

My mum have been following our footsteps too.

We are all well globalized products. Lol

moving on, i have a free day today cause i have got no ECONS ESSAY to write :D

YEAH.But that doesnt make me any happier cause STAYING at home IS BORING.

other than lappy, phon, ipod and uh MIO tv there is NOTHING else i can do.

Im not choosing sleep even though the weather is hella awesome :D

o no those are signs showing my over reliance on technology. :O

i think we will be bored to death if we are deprived of any of those above.

Was reading my tuition teacher's book yesterday night

and i came across a phrase that i really like cause it was paradoxical yet so true.

-Pain makes love more desirable and love makes pain bearable. They come together as one!

:) My teacher is really positive and her encounter makes me appreciate and live life properly and cherish the PRESENT >:D

Oh yeah i started jotting down my dates to play after prelims in case i forget !

:D hehe Friday its like shopping with crys they all and Later meeting my fav ladies for K session ^^

Sat Dont even know if there is time for my dears cause i have tuition for the whole day !!!

Sun HOPEFULLY k box with the kidddooos miss them i feel detached from them already , feel like a bystander ,a parent who no longer integrates with them. am i growing old a little too quickly :/ geesh WORRIED haha.

well, growing up not that bad since life starts to get more interesting from now yeah :D

oh ya went to the doctor already. hmm it was just an allergy so i guess the dots will go away soon :D

and my mum visited the LV floating bay already. :) she said there was a BASEMENT. so that means we can see fishy?

INTERESTING right :) so in the new future we no longer need land to build our buildings already. haha but my mum complains what if tsunami hits. Uh i dont know lol.

ANYWAY i think my mum's fashion sense is getting better!

Or maybe im getting OLDER cause i actually think that her clothes are PRETTY.

and i may even consider wearing them thats a good thing since i always running on a budget deficit literally POOR ME.

haha

Saw this quote randomly online

thought it was really sweet BUT UH it doesnt make sense ehh ARENT THEY THE SAME THEN. haha puzzled.

He isn't my boyfriend, but I love his hugs, smile, advice, kindness & the times we laugh together. I just fell in love with our friendship.♥

WA SERIOUSLY NEED TO START EXERCISING.

Never felt so unhealthy before ;( SWIMMINGGGGGGG

haha wanted to put a chinese title for the post BUT it didnt do well with the pretty so i changed it.

Teardrops on my Guitar

^ he's manly and tiny eyes look ^^

^ be it the hot beggar look

halfway through the prelim battle already.

Can't stand it, for the first time i thought i may have a chance to pass or score better.

But than this feeling that i have faithfully followed betrayed me.

Shouldnt trust myself so much from the start.

Cause i thought i was right but it always turn out differently and normally in the bad light.

if this time i cant make it, i shall just....

TRY HARDER NEXT TIME RIGHT :>

ahyo never once felt accomplished every since i stepped into jc

and it feels like i never seem to do anything right here.

but fret not now i stop thinking of leaving and avoiding cause im staying and making miracles happen.

cause the ONLY WAY IS TO MOVE FORWARD right?

i wont allow myself to fall and fail like this. :D its so not me.

shall strengthen myself before the bad news hits so i can recover quickly ^^

eeeks im getting like bites all over my hands.

I guess its my bed that is always flooded with bags and clothes and sometimes books? ;/

its bad my hand looks like its infected with chicken pox ;O.

eekkkss hope the bug dies or leave soon :(

AND YESH, if u see me PLEASE DONT remind me that dear gd top and baby is coming for the F1 showcase to headline a performance.IM TRYING to resist already. How many more times will i let such opportunities past before im willing to pay to see them. Now is not the right time :D but it still pains to know that they are SO NEAR yet withtin my reach at all :( im sure they will enjoy themselves here! ~

LASTLY, my love for DBSK has rekindled haha.

NOTHING absolutely beats love in the ice. :D WHAT an imba performance feel like crying when i watch xiah's face. :D but still, nothing replaces bigbang ^^its a lifetime commitment <3

kkk feel like dying already :D cant wait for weekends to come cause my meeting my dearests :D

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song on the car i keep singing

Dont know why i do :)

YOO AH IN WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA U DRIVE ME NUTS WITH UR SMALL EYES :>

SPAMM TIME EVIDENCE :D

NOW U KNOW WHY HE IS LOVED :)

Sungkyunkwan

Know whats my secret hobby for the past week ?

WATCHING SUNGKYUNKWAN scandal <3

Never knew that they had such beautiful cast like micky, park min yong and especially with CAPS

MOON JAE SHIN AND SOONG JONG KI. :D

Drooling over them every seriously every episode.

Sorry to micky but i cant stand it when i know that min yong is not going to end up with my hot beggar ;(

Its ok i shall have him then. :D

haha and o yeah went to meet a tuition teacher of mine.

A long and touching story :D

our reunion was a heartwarming one

Hope our date would come soon :D

Ok time to sleep

1 CHEM paper + 1 MATH paper + 2 topics of BIO for tomorrow ;D ^^

IMBA ME :D

and i LOVE DBSK SONGS recently - eh JYJ i mean :D

SUNGKYUNKWAN OST IS my alarm every morning :>

Xiah's voice is always so sweet to hear.

Sherman lagoon comics are good ^^

<3 Alex sherman hahahhahahahah

You & I

O dear, i'm falling sick.

itchy nose, scratchy throat, headaches

always like that. tsk & pfft.

SICK AT THE WRONG PERIOD.

for the first time i feel like owning a pet :D

must be my tuition teacher and the petshop ^^

GLEE 3D ^^

Set Fire to the Rain

Recently, i cant stop drowning myself in english songs

its like i can almost spell every song playing on 98.7

haha thats bad right?

Lol my tuition friend told me she wanted to buy an inspirational book to read to boost her confidence before going for prelims

and i thought that was a fantastic idea since i have to me psychologically well before i can conquer the paper right. so i asked her again that day and to my dismay the book wasn't a help at all :/

hahaha Is A levels that depressing?

but crys and i came up with an awesome song to study the colours for TM CHEERS :D

Anyways had a funny encounter at the coffeeshop one day

lol the uncle was a little perverted and the best part was i didnt even get his pervert hints till my friend explained it to me haahhahaa.

i love this song by cab recently,

the tune is so catchy and i love how he plays around with his voice ^^

It feels just like it was yesterday
We were in love
Why's it falling apart
I've never been one to walk away
But I've had enough
And it's breaking my heart

Cause you love me just the way that you should
It's nothing that you do
No it's nothing you say
Yeah baby, I know that you're good
But I don't want a good girl No, not today

Cause I want it bad I want a bad girl, baby, bad
I want a love that's crazy, yeah
I want a bad girl, baby, bad I want it bad

I want a girl who stays out too late
And when I call
She doesn't answer the phone
Oh, I want a girl who likes it her way
And through it all
I know I'll end up alone

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/the_cab/#share

:D

its teachers day tomorrow my poor ct have to spent it alone

and neither am i returning to dunman

but soon. catching up will definitely be done once loose ends are tied up.

and my daddy's iphone screen have like cracks all over it 0.0 HEARTPAIN

I want it Bad

o no i have to wake up at 7.30am tomorrow or else 2 of them will turn up at my gates tomorrow to call me up ! ;)

yup starting to study hardcore tomorrow !

please, make it work.

and i think it will work :D

haha.

wu chang - i just have to remember that phrase since ming yun zhang wo zai zi ji de shou zhong right? yeah i believe i will succeed if i try hard enough :D

at least whenever i'm tired i have them there right.

i doubt i will be tired easily

my energy bars are always around ^^

all i need is a hug or my ipod :D

anyway, my ah gong is back home already

he is one of the toughest man i have ever seen :D

he is like reaching his eighties already and yeah despite going through an operation

he looks fine really though hurting inside.

But i really really think he is so cute & glad that my cousins love him as much too :D

so heartwarming to see so. i guess he brought us closer too :D

o yeah next week IM SO GOING TO SWIM the 60 length

need to tan and stress relieve. not bad right :D

face growing fatter each day HMPhH!

im supposed to be stressed and slimming down

but its otherwise oh my mama.

i dont understand why?!?!?!?

k i need a goodnight sleep now !

VECTORS

i love VECTORS ^^

i love 18/10 more :D

teachers day celebration was awesome :D

Phototaking laughing and eating ;) i enjoy spending time with time SO SO MUCH

but its coming to an end soon ;(

i dont want!

anyway just being random,

hate it when rumours go around when people whisper behind your back

maybe it was brought upon myself but

that gives you no right to judge.

since those mouths aren't mine they are uncontrollable

so shall brace myself for any malicious comments coming along

tough fight hs

but no regret never will ;)

Shall prove u wrong.

2 Weeks = PRELIMS :>

Special

^ went to catch the fireworks with loved ones :)

its really calm quiet and peaceful at 12am.

loves (: NDP2011

^ ever since my micky was lost it was replaced with pooh.

havent found a name for him but everyone in class loves squeezing him ;(

^ its abi's birthday today. :) really proud how van can prepare the shirts for her!

it was a heart warming feeling back to mozart back to guitar meetings

i didnt realise how much i miss those times till i stepped back in again :D

^ this was my jts :D cute right 2 generations coming together.

i love swensen's ice cream buffet ! and jia hui xD

^ NDP buffet.

ate like 1001 sashimi :D

the meet up was the most important part but u know there is like something missing(?)

we are not that talkative as before

more kept to ourselves more barriers!

i need a holiday with them soon :(

9

^ pretty sister rare occasions where im willing to lend her my geek specs :D

dont we share resemblance?

i insist we do ! :D

Helloooooo

currently there is nothing much going on in life now

but there are still moments are worth living for.

Its like 83 days to A levels. o_o

yeah study hard work hard like crazy cause there is only like 9000 vacancies in uni when 20000 people are fighting with u for those places.

never felt so kiasu before in my life!

i know i don't want to taste that bitter feeling of regret cause it will eat me up inside and

No one can ever cure that feeling i know that.

Shall use photos to summarise my life :)

and hang in there :D

Time

Get rid of procrastination!

Thought is Generative

Start learning, stop studying :D

Hold on to this quotes and move on hs ! no fear !

:) i really can't wait for this long holiday to come

so that ...

i can study at least 9 hours a day :>

haha do i scare u. LOL

复制人

o boy, i really do love his voice :)
Let me see how is it even possible to describe how i'm feeling now.

Its like 100000000pounds laying on my heart.

it feels like nothing you do is going to make things right again

like no matter how hard you can try and u still remain there

and im getting tired of telling myself there is still glimpse of hope if u hang on

its like endless crying will not cure that pain and unhappiness

no matter how many times i shake such negative thoughts away it comes back to me again

its recurring, i know i brought it upon myself

but u cant help it right when every single thing happening around you just prove that u are worthless

This depression feeling has been here all along since year 2.

Its crazy right, like how i can hold on for so long and not crumble yet.

since i can tell im a little depress i guess my condition aint that bad yet.

i know she sees this. both of us are hurting like nobody business

But i know its essential for us to grow. Hang in there my dear, will text as soon as i have time

Dont misunderstand, i still love school cause i love friends and yeah learning But i dont know why the process of understanding them better seem so difficult. Must start to get to know them better :>

On the lighter note, Adam lambert has been on my favourite list

Perhaps its the song he sings i can relate them well with how im living now :D

yeah on Sat its my JTS yet to get my dear JUNIOR a present.

O god a sat wasted + my snail speed when will i complete my work o_o

hahahaha anyway bad mood always recently and its no good cause what im feeling is starting to show during school hours. :O

i have mmy dears to stop me thinking about it. so i guess it wont be that bad right.

FIGHTING. :)

POSITIVE/ NEGATIVE ^2 gives u positive too :DDDDD

everyone is so supportive dont wanna let them down :(

But can i do it?

Have you lost your way?
Livin' in the shadow of the messes that you made
And so it goes
Everything inside your circle starts to overflow

Take a step before you leap
Into the colors that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday

Need you now.

whoo i really enjoy Lady Ant's music :)

their lyrics are always so sweet and real.

Lol and wont they form a love triangle ?!

its so hard not to fall for her right.

Yesterday and Friday was a bad day.

But i'm glad its over already. :)

Too many things happening in a day.

so many people hurting because of my unthoughtful actions

The feeling of letting everyone around you down is just so awful.

Especially if they are a part of you.

Because when they hurt, you hurt too.

No one is updating me about korean wave concert ! :(

my YG family is back in korea already.

Wonder if they will ever come back again!

and how long will it take for the 5 of them to be united once again.

biology is absolutely a crazy subject

I have to devote all my time to you

and what about the others

SO SELFISH :O

hope prom goes well!!

Hope the table matter will be settled soon ;<

and its really a small small world. :)

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time :D

Bad Day.

today suck. :/

Always be my baby

Feeling kind of down at first.

I guess its the stress, discomfort and pressure thats causing my indigestion.

well, glad that the torturous moment was over

cause whenever i had a thought, i felt like puking :/ even when i was eating.

haha weird to say but this time Guitar saved me ;D

i picked it up and strum a few songs

and wakaka the feelings mentioned above vanished

feeling kind of peaceful and calm now.

like its telling me everything is gonna be okay. :)

so i believe all things happen for a reason. ;)

and they are definitely not for the bad if we think of it as a good thing.

like why i re-joined guitar after 4 years.

Never knew i loved it so much and now he has a name .

Short name: Mr G , Full name:Mr G.raffe :)

Lol my pres. made me name it :D

like why a friend can appeared out of nowhere

and enter your life making me realise that

he will be there for me whenever things are bad. :)

like why she has always been there for 2 yrs.

Cause she will be the one walking with me till the end of my JC journey.

watching me, laughing with me, cheering me on

like why i have such a kind class

That affirms me that i had never regretted taking this path

cause they made life easier for me :D

except for the being too smart part! haha.

I have been searching for the 'they' in the lyrics

i was so afraid i couldnt even find one.

and realise that i have them all around me

and its all i need to reach my dreams.

and they are the first ones who make me learn that i wanna cherish them

and protect them with all my heart cause they are so dear to me.

This time i'm not afraid to give my heart to do whatever it takes to keep them close

cause i know they wont break it and they deserves it :)

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

All this will pay off, i make sure it will :)

ANYWAYYY I NEED A DOSE OF HARRY POTTER !

cant believe its ending

my favourite childhood movie :(

i have watched them grow through every movie.

i cant believe everything has its end.

Thats why there are always new beginnings.

HHAHAH SO POETIC/ inspirational today :D

No Boundaries

whee i really love transformers.

Though i'm like situated at the 4 row side and the movie was like uh 2 hrs 45 min.

but it was still a good one.

I said it resembled power rangers but better version of it.

but my friend says not.

Still, it was a great movie and im glad it didnt fall short of my expectations

cause u know the feeling of watching a great movie :)

it feels so good (:

and haha i got a free Massage after the movie what more can i ask for :D

k and i did something really significant during the weekends

forget about the homework and stuff.

Xing and I signed up for this crazy elective known as climbing via ferrata and abseiling.

seriously, i have never done such a strenuous and life threatening activity in my life.

and i doubt i willl ever have the guts to lay my hands on those rungs again.

Heres the summary !

-30m high/ 4 stories high?

- Metal rungs

-some safety gadgets and my favorite lobster claws

-smelly helmets haha

-Gloves.

thats all u need to climb and of course your guts & your partner ;D

so heres what i did. put on safety gadgets, listened closely to the instructions, held on to my dear life , praying deeply, shivering like a pig at every pause,didnt dare to even tilt my head to see my progress, gathered their motivations, sweat like i ran a 10km race, teared and thoughts of giving up but im in the middle of no where, got confused with my left and my right.Thats what u can anticipate, muscle sore and its hard to propel body upwards and forward cause i fear of falling - but the point is I DIDNT GIVE UP AND STILL MADE IT TO THE END RIGHT. :D

so that wasnt the end k.

Whats awaiting is the abseiling from 30m all the way to the ground.

HAHA the wait was crazzy and i was all ready to chicken out cause there is a lift waiting out there for me and it takes me right down to the 1st story and out of the 12 story building.

but i wont do such a thing cause i PAID for the activity and i wanted to cross boundaries.

:) so with an insane mind i went to try.

WA when i was standing on the wooden board that gives u a bird eyes view of the entire landscape of the building i almost fainted.HAHA cant control my peeeee. Lol thank god the instructors could read our nervous expressions and he started cracking jokes. I didnt realise it at that moment but that trick work on me cause i loosen up and listened to him and talked him and the height didnt matter anymore :) so yeah yx and i get to abseil together :D it was a blast :D quite easy as compared to climbing rocks but the rope burned !! and i lose control several times. But for a first timer i it was not bad except for the pathetic landing where my ass hits the floor with a thud and i couldnt get up at all cause i was hell exhausted.

Well at least i felt accomplished.

I guess i needed an achievement like that to get an aproval of myself

and this came just in time.

Every night before i close my eyes

i would replay the song no boundaries, Desperate for encouragement

and yeah i cry to it every night.

haha studying is not killing me. Its me thats not moving on but at least its better now :D

i think no i mean i can do it and will do it no matter what :D

the songs will help me and someone will be there for me to shoulder my pain.

okayy batt dying.

and life is seriously full of unexpected scenarios its like things happening these days are started to get out of my control

maybe im just letting go and let it lead me while i just follow life.

hahaha just that u never know whats going to come around everytime

and it pops by when u least expect it :D

Great feeling though.peach green tea

haha. Nights.

Stay positive !

Jar of Hearts

Enjoyed my class chalet thoroughly

though the place was hmm really rundown but the people were full of warmth and delightful to be with :D

hehehe and our personal skilled photographer brought his "umbrella" along to beautify the photos :)

shall elaborate more when i have time k

cause im rushing off to shopping ! AGAIN.

GOD I kinda starting to dislike buying things cause i hate it when i have to spend moneyyy :(

oh yeah i wanna catch transformers soon

cause heard it was a nice one !!

and hope my lovely 8 cousins will be able to watch the last part of harry potter with me

since we watched part 1 to 7 together !! so sweeett right :D

hahahaha and i saw a lil girl lock lips with junho ~ Envious ttm :D

he is superrrrrr cute :B

me tooo JUNHO!

kkkkk anw i just started on Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami :)

used my blood sweat savings to buy k :D

hope it will be a good one !

since i eyed it for a long time already :D

:}

HANDS UP

Oh yeah.

JCT's over. It sucks big time. U's are not unfamiliar anyway. :/

Anyway, enjoyed myself with crys & adi at ice skating ring yesterday

i felt i did a great job coaching them hahahah they could move !!

Later , it will be our first time ever spending a night together with the class at a chalet.

yx say many staying over.

Omo Ultra excited and delighted !!

gonna spam photos like hella.

My teacher's the best he ordered like tons of food for us and its free

the only pity is that he cant join us :(

its okay i believe there is manyyy more to come :D

poor me have to attend tuition tomorrow

im so gonna die and after that im going shopping somemoree !! :O

first money lost ;second sleep gone.

i really love jiyongie (: actually the entire YG :)