Fights

geez i really hate them.
just had a tiff witha friend
Okay its rare to fight with a friend i mustsay.
If a fight is possiblei guess it must reallyreallybe someone close
Because once u know that the fight is over, u will make it up with him/her and be best friends all over again just likefamily members. fights never last.

but the agony of going through it is really bad
there is like stages in fights.
for e.g feeling pissed at firs, tfollowed by hurling whatever bad words that comes to ur mind and the ending is always the pang of guilt or regret after saying what u shouldnt and thinking if only i could hold it in, finally trying to relieve the awkwardness and burying the hatchet. :/
Uh but i realised fights are like redundant
Through them people get to express themselve better by directly approaching the problem
but fights do not necessarily ensure that the problem is being solved.
In the end who decides whos right and wrong, the lines are not clearly defined
and both parties have to reflect and question/doubt themselve whether what they had done wasright
for me, it always ends up ina mess.i can never draw a concrete solution and hence solve theproblem causing it to erupt all over again. But the question is how would i know if im right or wrong. if only life is like an exam, i would have answers to every single problems that are posed to me so i wouldnt get it wrong.haiyo i always think but it doesnt get me anywhere :/ damn stupid right. guess exams are easier than problems in life haha !
Even so,shall still try mybest to search for an answerandi will keep trying till i get theright one
and i know iwill cause u have to do it right if itsfor someone worth it .

eekks my keyboard islike super laggyand the space bar button is screwed sopardon ifu see words that are unfamiliar or unusually long.
haha feeling really emotional today.

and anothermatter i dont understand how people can become so rich.
I alwaysstare at the terrace houses when buses drive past them and would oftenwonder how long would it take to buy or built such a house what kind of job would u havetotake up to afford such a house and will the owner be happy when they get to own such houses because pursuit for wealth is never ending isnt it tiring? and is it even a happything?truthfully i guess it will but after a while as all humans would do we get tired of what wehaveand would yearn for more.i wouldnt want to fall into thatvicious cycle. it willbe a constanreminder ! be happy andsufficient. hmmbut i really love semi-detachhouses and wannahave one next time. seeeeeeee im too self contradictory all the time. HAIS. thatswhy bu neng cheng da shi!

good night :>
shopping tomorrow ^^