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Okay supposed to be in bed by now
The time is 0031h in the morning.
I know its supposed to be early for many but not for me when i have a 7am shift tomorrow !
But what can i do when life's so good for the past 2 days. i was grant 2 days worth of good sleep.
Waking up at 11, doing the house chores, self cook because i was too lazy to step out of house, watching tw or korean drama and read on my bed till 2am in the morning - At times, i really enjoy moments like this :) Its relaxing and slow pace but when monday comes NOT ANYMORE.
Im back to the Gan Chiong spider and i packed back to back to time to breathe.

Had a short week in the Obs ward, i must say i could have done better.
kids seemed to drain all the energy from me leaving me no more strength for the women.
I feel kind bad because i have learnt a lot but they are not exactly put into use to help them enough.

Its a pretty tone down week for me!
Caught Furious 6. WAHAHAH im totally a die hard fan for these movies. Though i know nothing about cars and even when they are driving they are absolutely too fast for my eyes to catch up but i look for the warmth, the twist and the bonds in the movie which leaves me grinning as i leave the theatres. :) Yeap its a good one to watch :D Makes u all geared up, alive and motivated to drive maybe?

celebrated Anna's birthday during the weekend at NYDC :)
Its my second time there and the food is marvellous :D
I never regretted everytime i visit !
except perhaps they could add strawberry shortcake to their menu so i would definitely patronise more often :D
After the dinner we didnt know what to do (cause we didnt plan since some were leaving) so we did what girls do best. We find a corner and we sit down and TALK. Lol love it when some of them share their stories and crack us up. we did bitch, did gossip, shared our experience and camwhore in between :D what a girl thing to do right hahaha It was enjoyable and it made me realise how much i miss talking my heart out to close ones. Its becoming less and less these days. Maybe there is less time or maybe too busy or maybe i less prefer too. hahas anyways cant wait for clinicals to end and have our stayover soon!! :D

Thats about my week ! a NON exercise week i stare at my tummy each day worrying about the fats that are piling onto the muscles that i once try to built :( Hais better buck up hs !!! :D Cant stand being unfit anymore ! >:D

well anyways glad that i read 1/4 of the books which i have borrowed from the library.
HAHA as a die hard fan of Jodi picoult, i really seldom touch other books after i started reading hers.
Next up would be Between the lines :D what a pretty cover and what a pity i didn't get this version :(

These days i see myself inheriting the worst traits from my dad and my mum respectively. I hate it when they display those actions but its familiarity reminds me that those characteristics also resides in me. And it disgust me cause when i remind myself not to follow their actions, it happens faster than i can stop myself. Its hard to be a nice human. Maybe its just harder for me.

Postings & Updates

woah woah

2 weeks of postings down ! :D

i thoroughly enjoyed it & im glad i really love the kids and everything that im doing there.

i dont drag myself to work, i dont dread working for longer hours or having later breaks (:

The best part is that i can finally put my skills to use and im learning more than what i have learnt in school. These skills are so useful to my future gfs who may be mothers to be & their future kids or even their own mothers :D Love how these skills can be so applicable to the daily lives of people around me & thats why i never regretted chosen nursing :B.

cool and another great news

My dear's back from PG & he has 2 more weeks before becoming a botak !

Miss those days when he was a botak xD

anyways had a great weekend and vesak holiday so im gonna update !!

On vesak was a good girl and went to the temple to pray of course for half a day only xD

But it felt good. lolol cause i too long never pray liao la.

PLUS it toned my upper thigh muscles because i was kneeling too much :o free gym session on my thighs.

Watched Mente at night :) with my dear.

Its danzpeople annual dance concert

i saw all the awesome instructors, some friends i made there, my dance cap! and the aunties too (:

The kids were so adorable on the stage

and i wouldnt forget the look on the little boy's face when mr G gave him a fist punch and told him that he was awesome when he did Justin bieber's beauty and the beat. He looked so shy yet so proud of his own achievement and he is only 9/10 yo? Damn so much more opportunities to come, im so envious of him (: one of the items reminded me of winnie's & vernon's item during cactus XD and it brought back good memories xD wheee can't wait for more danzpeople classes during june & dhopps dance concert to come XD Salivating liao !

The next morning we went to NTUC may day family fun fair which was held at DTE. 

Woah i thought i was early kays because i met my dear at 8 and we munch on macs breakie before heading to queue for the movie tickets redemption. BUT BUT it wasnt even 9am and all the tickets were gone :O the crowd was crazy on that day !! the bowling alley was booked till the 7pm slot ! We didnt even try the wild wild wet haha oh my so even if we had the coupons we had limited activities to do. LOL we tried some zumba in the morning and it was so awesome !!!!!! wanna change course soon LOL and we played with the gladiator * face palm most embarrassing moment of my life * we also tried laser shooting xD its way better than paintball because no physical pain was inflicted xD and we met gracia too !!! she gave me a tote which was awww so cute !!!! XD lol in the end we couldnt stand the heat and went to take a respite in DTE. Jy & kev was there too!!! :D we ate lunch & chilled over supernatural & army stories o_o gulps. But it was truly good time spent ! :)) but i had horrible metabolism and indigestion that day or these days so i was unusually cranky & displaying my black face every now and then hais my poor friends PAISEH :(. 

Went home in the noon to rest and settle some OGL stuff before heading to meet 18/10 for dinz

at a famous jap restaurant in mandarin gallery. HAHA my early friends were queuing for a long long time man. Had a good meal and had a good drink after that at harry's bar (: HAHA its always with them that i get to drink a bit teeny weeny bit and see the world at night !!! (: thankful for that :D hope our wish of going for a short getaway will come true !!!!!! miss the others who are in overseas too D: 

And so today, no more energy left :(

I OVERSLEPT and i didnt attend metta hais. got chided big time.

Chionged my housework to reduce the severity of my mother's lashing 

so i missed GYM with beauty sy D: haiyooo always like that so angst with myself :(

but at least im pretty much done with the OGL thingy, next is informing them about the progs !

and at least i get to visit my granny tonight :D she's discharge better and GETTING better  in my cousin's house ! 

Wishing all a great week ahead.

LIVING life to the hardest, fullest, happiest  GAMBATEH !

Sorry always lazy to attach photos ! always on my instag @shanheartdance and that wjy dont wanna take photo with me :<<< hahah !! YAY fel's comin back soon!!!! POZ bday celebration !!!!! Anna's birthday DINZZZ!!! so gonnna put on weight!!!!!

Towards the end of 1/3 of my uni life

So ask if im contented after a year of university.
I would say so-so. There were times that drove me crazy breathless and almost given me heart attacks. There were many many moments of re-adapting, finding the self suited for the environment, readjusting certain sets of opinions so that i seem less serious or selfish? But there were also moments that were rewarding, euphoric and worth remembering for the lifetime.

I love what i studied during this semester.
Definitely agreed that it was way tougher but it was equally challenging and interesting.
Even though i didn't manage to cope well during exams due to unforeseen circumstances but after that significant experience, i learn not to be so hard of myself. Its alright to fall short some times. Know your limits, very important. Glad its all better now :D & will still continue to strive hard for the knowledge :D because sometimes i really enjoy what im studying. Sounds bian tai-ish.

anyways, moving on the 4 days of rest before clinicals tomorrow was a wonderful period for recuperation. I met my platoon 2 mates for present making session and a trip to ecp. Though i would say that things hadn't really gone the way that i thought it would be and i truly dislike uncontrollable moments. BUT yesh, learnt to chill and not take things so serious anyway it all still turned out well all in all :D at the very least our mission was accomplished ! :D teehee. Also, we (xing and i ) went to send crys off to Europe. i swear gonna die seeing her instag all day, cant wait for her postcard. Hope she gets whatever she wants there and be safe :) She makes me think that anything is possible as long as you go for it. Yeaps dialah was supposed to be here to but her car was stuck in the causeway jam :O nvm, we will still be meeting for xing's birthday (: teehee. And next, met dear on the 3rd day :D. Shopped at Ikea alone cause i had some mad craving for exploration and time alone and watched frankeinweenie together & dine together before he goes off to head to his hometown D: . Hehe on sat went for our maiden trip to USS with the datrololol lol. They never fail to make me laugh together with them or even when im alone. I dont know if its 8 years or what but sometimes i really think that we are on the same frequency, same kind of thinking and its scary. XD Love their jokes and pokes and im so glad & proud that we continued to stay this way for god knows how many years. Where else do you find such comfortable place to be in with so many kind hearts and wise minds :):). On the sunday, its mother's day. I dont know if its me but MOTHERS DAY this year sounds like a big thing. Everyone is so hapz about mother's day and i never felt love this strong in previous years or perhaps i was less associated with the social media then. On the contrary, we hadn't had time to prep much for my mum. We spend the time fruitfully in metta today washing our mum's feet and singing the all time favourite- shi shang zhi you ma ma hao song. LOL. Well my role was to look after and erm remember 12 little 5 year old faces and do the crowd control, the mama job like hugging them, the fan-blowing job, the friend job, the fierce teacher job, the act cute job (parallel play with them). Its damn tough but lucky that they were only 5 years old so they cannot rebut even if they want to xD. I think it was a wonderful prep before i go for prac tomorrow. Kids im here to befriend you :D But the night wasn't a very pleasant one. my grandma was warded to hospital because of high fever. I have never seen her so weak before because in fact i havent seen her in the hospital before. She isnt the type who moved around or the kind whom talks a lot. but she was independent, always sitting up and stronger than this. Seeing her in hosp, makes me sick and guilty that i had even had initial thoughts of not wanting to visit. before i saw her i was afraid, she would look really sick and sad and i wouldnt be able to accept it as geriatrics isn't my favourite genre. But i was so wrong. She was adorable, still the grandma that i have seen since young the one whom i neglected all the time just because she leave a distance from us. The one whom i sometimes reluctant or feel exhausting to visit whenever my dad prompt us to. And whenever i visited her i would feel ashamed for not even wanting to spend a noon with her just because i think i have more important things in life. On mothers day i feel even worse because i see her 4 children depressed in their own ways. i really hope she will be able to overcome this obstacle and give us a chance to love her in the way she loved us.