I would say so-so. There were times that drove me crazy breathless and almost given me heart attacks. There were many many moments of re-adapting, finding the self suited for the environment, readjusting certain sets of opinions so that i seem less serious or selfish? But there were also moments that were rewarding, euphoric and worth remembering for the lifetime.
I love what i studied during this semester.
Definitely agreed that it was way tougher but it was equally challenging and interesting.
Even though i didn't manage to cope well during exams due to unforeseen circumstances but after that significant experience, i learn not to be so hard of myself. Its alright to fall short some times. Know your limits, very important. Glad its all better now :D & will still continue to strive hard for the knowledge :D because sometimes i really enjoy what im studying. Sounds bian tai-ish.
anyways, moving on the 4 days of rest before clinicals tomorrow was a wonderful period for recuperation. I met my platoon 2 mates for present making session and a trip to ecp. Though i would say that things hadn't really gone the way that i thought it would be and i truly dislike uncontrollable moments. BUT yesh, learnt to chill and not take things so serious anyway it all still turned out well all in all :D at the very least our mission was accomplished ! :D teehee. Also, we (xing and i ) went to send crys off to Europe. i swear gonna die seeing her instag all day, cant wait for her postcard. Hope she gets whatever she wants there and be safe :) She makes me think that anything is possible as long as you go for it. Yeaps dialah was supposed to be here to but her car was stuck in the causeway jam :O nvm, we will still be meeting for xing's birthday (: teehee. And next, met dear on the 3rd day :D. Shopped at Ikea alone cause i had some mad craving for exploration and time alone and watched frankeinweenie together & dine together before he goes off to head to his hometown D: . Hehe on sat went for our maiden trip to USS with the datrololol lol. They never fail to make me laugh together with them or even when im alone. I dont know if its 8 years or what but sometimes i really think that we are on the same frequency, same kind of thinking and its scary. XD Love their jokes and pokes and im so glad & proud that we continued to stay this way for god knows how many years. Where else do you find such comfortable place to be in with so many kind hearts and wise minds :):). On the sunday, its mother's day. I dont know if its me but MOTHERS DAY this year sounds like a big thing. Everyone is so hapz about mother's day and i never felt love this strong in previous years or perhaps i was less associated with the social media then. On the contrary, we hadn't had time to prep much for my mum. We spend the time fruitfully in metta today washing our mum's feet and singing the all time favourite- shi shang zhi you ma ma hao song. LOL. Well my role was to look after and erm remember 12 little 5 year old faces and do the crowd control, the mama job like hugging them, the fan-blowing job, the friend job, the fierce teacher job, the act cute job (parallel play with them). Its damn tough but lucky that they were only 5 years old so they cannot rebut even if they want to xD. I think it was a wonderful prep before i go for prac tomorrow. Kids im here to befriend you :D But the night wasn't a very pleasant one. my grandma was warded to hospital because of high fever. I have never seen her so weak before because in fact i havent seen her in the hospital before. She isnt the type who moved around or the kind whom talks a lot. but she was independent, always sitting up and stronger than this. Seeing her in hosp, makes me sick and guilty that i had even had initial thoughts of not wanting to visit. before i saw her i was afraid, she would look really sick and sad and i wouldnt be able to accept it as geriatrics isn't my favourite genre. But i was so wrong. She was adorable, still the grandma that i have seen since young the one whom i neglected all the time just because she leave a distance from us. The one whom i sometimes reluctant or feel exhausting to visit whenever my dad prompt us to. And whenever i visited her i would feel ashamed for not even wanting to spend a noon with her just because i think i have more important things in life. On mothers day i feel even worse because i see her 4 children depressed in their own ways. i really hope she will be able to overcome this obstacle and give us a chance to love her in the way she loved us.
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