Cope/Coping

  
Pictures shall illustrate the direction of my post today.
AND so tada completed my first presentation ever in Nursing.
That explains why we are clad so formally that it even makes me feel weird.
I enjoyed the process. Although I'm not sure how the teacher would perceive the outcome, i roughly have an idea how it would turn out already.

In the mean time, i should deserve and self proclaim a short break till next week.
As the saying goes, you need to rest to go further. I strongly believe in that which explains the photo of rooftop prince in my post.
Yes, among the list of korean dramas, i have chosen this after reading many reviews.
Im afraid of being suck into the process of fantasising, idoling and crushing on them but its definitely the best way to relieve stress (:

recab recab !

last week met up with 18/10 for dinner and pool.

hahah was upset with my aiming skills.

gotta go visit the place more( i sound like an bad girl) , the game is kinda exciting and addictive.

But my motive is to improve skills :>

As usual the guys dont stop talking about army so the ladies had to carry on with uni.

heard their complains on their courses. i feel fortunate that i love mine. of course i know they will come to love their course soon. Im starting to feel that these people are those whom i can trust, lean on and fall in love with (: Like see how we camwhore like nobody's business on the train. people thought we were filming some mv.

Anyways feel like taking some time off for myself this weekend.

You know i never knew i speak as if im rushing off to somewhere or super excitedly every moment

and its kinda making people around me feel exhausted or irritated?

so maybe i should start looking into why i do so and how to go about changing it.

but if i change would it be too dull.

You see i have issues communicating even with norm. people.

so hmmm wouldn't it be even tougher if the convo is just about to get even more boring

Nevermind take it as it comes.

everyday is different and everyday im different.

secretly want to perform even though im going against your ground rules.

watching alex's chereo and reading picoult's abstract does wonders whenever i'm in a not so good state.

its comforting (:

But the thought of upcoming unpleasant even which will still befall even if i pray fervently is disappointing and im still figuring a coping mechanism for it which explains my short getaway.

haha so happy when i manage to fork out time for the display along NUH about human trafficking. goodness learnt quite a bit from the exhibition !

awareness is created so now how? 

theres a gap between how knowing this matter exist enable us to help them.

K i still have classes tomorrow.

But i'm so looking forward to the weekend for my own time.

just me, myself & i

have a happy weekend ahead ~

 and this is my beloved Mugger chan (:

This Kiss

You know i really like this song.
But after learning about the lyrics i still like it as much. WAHAHAH.
well the tune's really retro but the lyrics is about flirting.
Anyways, doesn't matter cause its a sweet tune to hum too.

I'm supposed to be finishing up my A&P tut and also my REFLECTION.
BUT SEE WHOS's HERE????
Goodness i cant stop myself from procrastinating cause time seems SO MUCH when i see it now.
Trying to deceive myself here yo.

There's a special reason why I'm here todays! and the only reason maybe.
well, cause recently i found out my best friend whom i found in nursing blogs too.
Like hello, who still blogs in this era? haha. Not saying its unpopular but its rare cause there are many competitive social media platforms out there.Technology gets obsolete fast these days.
Love reading blogs because love knowing what kind of person u are without having to garner the courage to ask for an answer. Because its the same for me. I wouldn't say some matters unless you ask me . Yet putting it down here is never a problem for me.Thats why i'm still sticking to blogger till the end. :)

School's this week is less hectic. its like a descending slope on a curve.
Im glad we started on the poster today. Well it was something that i looked forward too throughout the entire project. HAHA. i know thats mean. Im not trying to say Art's my forte rather i putting forth that communication is never my item. Art makes me happy. Its a carefree world on its own and it has no restrictions. I can be me and feel me when i'm in there. Let's just say its the perfect world i would be.

Okay before boring you with my aimless ranting that probably repeats weekly.
Lets just say how i got STINKY. Okay, we got it at Craftholics. Its a shop located in Bugis plus.
I have walked past it several times and held the doll in my hands but there was never a moment or reason why i had to buy it and my pocket wasn't allowing me too. The buy was an impromptu decision. And u know how much i love Impromptus right cause it exciting, its changing, its special, it ain't the normal or the usual. But we took super long to choose it like choosing names for children. we couldnt decide on the size (they come in different lengths and horizontal widths) and definitely different price. Most importantly its takes both crave to get it or else WHAT FOR BUY IT. true that there were several designs to pick from and every one of them looks cute in their own way !(: so i forgo a dress for stinky(monkey) and rabbit(mugger chan) HAHA. Please don't laugh at the names. i feel that an identity should be given so it isn't like any other monkey or rabbit cause it belongs to us and ours only. 2 for 25 only. Prices are subjective. Worth the grab (: nice to cuddle. the fur is really soft hehehehhee. LOVE IT. my favourite name for days already feels good to even just chant it.

and I'm eyeing on a pair of VANS that doesn't have my feet size why :'(

Stinky 

ps: don't over indulge in life and miss out on friends. sigh. why cant i just be ultra sociable and just talk without having to think. See the problem is recurring again.

First Reflection.

Today at this untimely hour i am proud announced that i have finished my first REFLECTION. people must be wondering oh so its just a reflection.HA. But this ain't the ordinary reflection you jot down in your mini journals everyday and thrash it aside. Its more than just description. Still amazed at how it was possible for me to churn out the 1500 word essay for a week -,- (NOT VERY PROUD TO MENTION). Well at least i made use of GIBB's cycle and URH threw in literature to support my analysis haha :D. Everything sounds as chim as it may be but i believe the main takeaway from the entire chore (not really, pretty enjoyable at moments) was to become more aware of myself and it works super well. Because once i embarked on this, many events in my life became reflection-worth already. Anyways, yeah a pity this first piece of work holds 50% of the module mark and im obviously not gonna get the best grade cause you know my english and you know its the first time yeah. Like my practical shoo total disaster. On the bright side, i still deserved a pat since i managed to churn it out in time and trudge through the bad bowel and flu days !!! IT WASNT EASY AT ALLLLLL. and you know what the best part is : I've got another 1500 essay to write by next monday for FON. the trolled face totally. Writing reflections makes me happy (maybe not this long) it feels as if im a step closer to nursing already (: you know year one is like the time to settle down and adapt and taste all the shit you have never tasted in your life. Thats what i feel like now. They throw reflections at you, they throw simulation lab sessions at you, they make u work with other faculty students in projects, they make u present. truthfully, to some this may never be an issue. But personally, its a HUGE issue for me. So many first times in shortly 2 months of school. i dislike 'first times' because they give me butterflies in my tummy but i have to de-sensitize my fears so that they no longer are to me. and DID YOU KNOW? i missed my guitar dinner :'( HOW COULD I right. it was such a rare occasion. Until now i still bitterly blame myself partly for missing the dinner its like spoiling mood of the others. Okay so after this outburst, i should head for my sleep. Slept a lot during the weekends felt that my face instantly lifted and beautified when i woke up.
Feels a sense of accomplishment when i see a big chunk of words now !

Skulls

Skulls

Crayon

Shall start of the post with an interesting photo !

whee they aint normal skulls ! they are made of lego bricks by Nathan sawaya.

Normally i'm not really artsy but when inspiring things come along like this, i never let these opportunites pass by. So yeah i still contemplating on visiting the gallery in the art science museum. Its a lot of hard work creativity and patience. cause i can never imagine myself sculpting such a huge piece of artwork with million lego bricks it would drive me nuts. Maybe if the lego bricks were 10x larger, i may consider. haha and even as a teenager he makes me think that LEGOS are cool (: & they are not just toys we chew or bite.

Recently i have been sneezing a lot.

Its either i'm garnering more dislikes around me or simply i'm falling sick and sneezing is the best symptom to prove it. Because i may be weird but i rarely or barely sneeze once a day or even wheeze at all. Everyone around me is falling sick during this crucial period of midterms and its worrying! :( But it seems pretty helpless too cause theres nothing much to be done to prevent these virus for attacking ( maybe if I'm asleep now something could actually be done ) hahahahahah !

Anyway,Yes! the End of this week marks the end of some tests for my mid terms !

2 test: one theory and one practical ain't considered proper midterms.

and Nursing's not only that.

i got more reflection essays to come and they are as long as business reports.

i got two upcoming projects/presentation to complete before i can take a breather.

One thing's for sure its not going to be easy getting through it but the spaced out deadlines indeed helped a lot in relieving some stress i have on my back. 

Today's practical was truly memorable.

i still think its amazing to hire real simulated patients to act accordingly to the case scenario for us to be assessed on. Though i'm secretly annoyed when my patient kept bugging me with questions while i was trying to recall my steps watch my movements as well as trying to ignore the scrutinising from the assessor. But hey it was interesting because it will also happen in real life situations and i'm glad i get to experience them now so i wont fumble when i am doing my clinical. Still, my own assessment was pretty bad because there was so much room for improvement if there was less nervousness and anxiety battling in my brain. 20 minutes never felt so short ever. If i am going to fail, yeah upset i may be but under that circumstance i can never imagine how much better i could have done. Trying to type out some self reflection here so i wont be stunt when i try to attempt my reflection a week later!

I will be going to danzpeople tomorrow (YAY) and to watch Jaja with germs (double YAY) :D

i miss that place so badly i'm still thinking of making it as a bait to motivate me to work even harder for eoy examinations. HA. 

Well not much updates for now, Its october already. LIKE seriously i don't even know how sneaky time could be. and soon all my cousins will be free from examinations stress and torture of mugging daily (: while i will continue nursing to end of december. well, not a very sad thing actually HAHA.

Nothing much coming up maybe a guitar dinner gathering ? and maybe steamboat with uni peers? and buying vans with love? hmmm waiting dilah to be back ! 18/10 cycling outing SOON (that never comes -.-) ? yesh my 19 ! hahaha nothing to wish for actually :) got everything i need & want < better brains maybe>. more meditations/classes please [im being super lazy in my religion these days ... grrr] tough choice between dance and religion.