ASCENDANCE

Partly, why i have been on a hiatus.

The practices, the rehearsals and the actual concert on 21 Sept.

A day that i wouldn't forget.

Because it's rare that these proud/ unforgettable moments come by.

Still finding the strength to continue this.

Hopefully, one day i will be back again.

Also due to my Mental Health Assignment which was really tough for me. Because i had to study patho & pharmaco before i can embark on the essay. Luckily, i'm back in love with food, life and everything else. Yesh, i was almost lost there/ somewhere which i could't find myself.

Thankful for spiritual faith, mummy, professional advisors, friends, dear, family AND myself for not giving up and still learning how to overcome this ordeal (Battle within myself). Grateful that this life -obstacle is a failure and serves as an important lesson so that i learn to start going easy on myself, loving myself, crediting myself , having more confidence and always viewing the positive in whatever matter. :) THAT is so DARN important, if u do not have it or u feel that u are lacking of it. START PRACTICING because u deserve to be happy :)

And so, watching an episode of running man with GD in it really helps. :)

He is a living example of how cute and swag can coexist. perfectly natural for this talented one here :D

And on the side note, he POP lo ! :D Ghee really proud of him. It hasn't been easy for him at all. But listening to how he trudges through each obstacle with will and unrelentless perseverance always awes me. yeap my role model in bravery, confidence and strength. :D

The past weeks haven't been eventful socially but very dramatic academically. been through 2 practicals and hais haha i really suck at it. OR positively put, its just not as good as my cognition. It has always been that way BUT i know it will get better with practice xD. Since i never had flair in anything before. Tough life hs! well, manage to met up with fel for a quite short catching up, dancers for a sashimi feast ( i think i'm turning vegetarian soon :O stomach can't stand so many fishies !!! :x). Lol even squeezed time for DDC auditions. my soft spot. eh and and my all time favourite meditation and dharma circle session. HEHE gonna commit to engage the spiritual part of me once a week at least (sounds really holy) but because there are so many things happening in a day or a week i need time to reconcile with myself and recharge so i can keep going. Plus plus, its my little heaven :D 

It's october already ! May the months get better and everyone stays healthy and happy :>

I have so many people whom i'm missing right now and i wish i could reach out to if time allows.

haha 

Opps im supposed to dedicate 8hrs of rest to myself daily - MY NEW GOAL :)

That means i will just get up at 9 tmr HAHAHA. (going easy on myself)

Till then,

SHAN

Secret Garden

Trying hard to catch up whatever thats missing here before i start to write about my bangkok trip (:
In the mean time still deliberating whether i should type this because i am starving (time for my tea break LOL) well well, guess i will be touching on Matric fair, fel, bkk prep, first dance vetting, dinz with xing & jaz, TBG, conventus, lunch with ml & jq. yesh thats quite a lot to mention
HAHA wait till the bangkok one comes man !!

While waiting i know i'm really lagged but good shows are good shows no matter how long time passes :D
Presenting my 2nd last drama :D Secret garden.
One which i'm pretty in love with i guess since i have been thinking about it over the 5 days long bkk trip. I like how he hold her gaze and vice versa. Lol what he does for her, why rich and the poor are so clearly divided, the poetic lines in the show and inserting fairytales into the drama to make it more enchanting and dreamy like!

okay cannot take it ay longer will update this space once im back from combat. :D
This can wait but not my tummy :(

... continue

Since its really quite sometime before i shall be brief !
Teehee can't really remember the details too : /
So for the Matric fair haha i attended as a fake freshie. Not really to get the freebies but to browse the ccas again (: but it was amazing i got the scheduler this time :) my aim was fulfilled HAHA *punch into the air* i love going for such stuff because i get exposed to various activities that i never knew existed in NUS. The other motive was also to support my dearest dhopps for their showcase performance. But sadly the stage is really :x So yeah this time i trying for blast again. well not having any high hopes this time cause i feel even more unprepared than before even before i started dancing :< its okay, keep trying hs :) learn from the experience not the result :D

Met fel finally, don't know what we were talking about but we cannot stop lol.
Many updates about her camp, ocip and bkk trip.
lol enjoy her company cause somehow i just loving to hear her speak lol
and our exaggerated expression whenever we agree on something . Too funny too watch
On the side note, the icecream shop in CCP is really awesome salted caramel and durian are my new found favourite flavors

Oh yeah we also had Ascendance first dance vetting ! :D
whee its seriously damn cool :D
Haha we get to watch what other items are doing and go whoo eeee and awww throughout the thing
and the synergism is really crazy, u have to be there to understand & feeling the vibe for dancing.
Everyone is exploding their love for dance (:
& since the love was overspilling, the atmosphere was great and i didn't even know how hours passes without feeling exhausted.
I couldn't help but keep a smile all day after that like i had done something really good for the day :D

Heehee to top it off,
Im so glad i managed to meet Xing & Jaz for dinner that day to grab my long desired duck pizza.
They had new flavours and drinks. Okay i was really reluctant to drink and know i shouldn't but hais. I will control next time !! xD Hope to meet the busy class soon :)))

next it was TBG :)

Best dance performance u can ever catch in SG :)

HEHE love all the crews that night ;)

Can't even name which is my favourite.

Love how the concert was held cause it was really cute in the beginning with all the boogie, kissing and family cam :D awww. Best part is also meeting this bunch of intoxicateds and catching up before we go separate ways. Because we are all in different items, we meet different friends, some goes overseas for their exchange, some have new found interest. yeah don't know how long does times like this last but savouring it & enjoying it before it goes again.

then it was conventus ! an event to celebrate nurses day and welcome the freshmen :D

love the performances, the food, the songs, the skit and everything on that day :D

i thought i was really well planned and everything was beautifully decorated  hehe i enjoyed myself on that day too :D. wear pretty pretty to school & enjoy good food what a bliss :D

half of the chiobu!

small fraction of platoon 2

next up was a lunch & movie date with ML & jq :D

Wah that boy ah seriously long time no see & hear from him already.

Glad to meet up with them & to catch up on their lives :D

really hope i will be able to go for a trip with ML.

See if fates allow :) 

Last but not least tada :)

Played with this machine that reminds me of neoprint in the airport before boarding :D

teehee cui but happy faces

i'm really thankful for this bangkok trip.

thankful that my cousie gave me hope last minute that this might actually happen

thankful that her mum/ my aunt was so supportive and caring during the entire trip

thankful that my parents & dear was happy that i went.

Yeap this is my virgin trip alone without family members & i sold it to thailand :D 

wahahah

Hope to update soon BUT its NDP week and long holidays people ! ENJOY :D

& i shall savour my last break before school REALLY OFFICIALLY starts.

hais u can sure sense my dread.

rag/kbox/ndp parade/dear/dance/secret garden/metta/dental/baking?

yes how can so many things happen in 5 days right.

i'm exhausted ~

Twisted FOC'13

How have you been doing? :)

Sunday tales is taking sometime to churn out it's piece of story this week.
Lets start from the minor details last week before moving into the main story for the day :)

I finally caught monster university after what seemed like forever. Maybe i have a soft spot for cartoon movies. Because some find this movie a so-so but i enjoyed this one. At least more than despicable me. Maybe i haven't watched the previous 2 movies therefore i'm satisfied with this movie. But i enjoyed the theme because it was revolving about school life and i can relate how Mike feels when he really works really hard for all his life to become someone he couldn't be yet some didn't even have to try to the one. On the side note, i love the Monster University font xD why can't our school jerseys adopt such pretty font too :)

And this is my goal for the week :)

wakaka it's my 3rd book already for the month and still doing well.

I hope skipping the first one isn't gonna affect my liking for the second one because it's really impossible to get it from the library when the movie is gonna be out in a month's time. Hope its as good as what my cousin's said to me. Teehee.

when i opened my mail and i saw this.

Can't help but my lips cracked into a smile :)

i know it doesn't happen much these days already, because i'm already suppressing the urge to return to it and sometimes i don't have the time too.

But yeah one more time is always a lie, because i have tons of receipts from DP that i still keep till now.

Especially relatable to the second quote whereby, i always can't make it for appt with friends because i have a dance pract that i can't miss. lol 3x a week and pred is always complaining how busy i am.

At the third one LOL whenever blocking happens, im always the SUAY one who gets to do the opposite and awkward side SIGHS.

But lol never complaining cause i always love it whenever i'm dancing. :)

Still waiting for the day to come, to proudly announce that i'm a dancer.

Whoo is that possible? xD

Anyways, these are some really pretty photos that fans have made for the drama Queen & I.

i'm embarking on my 2nd last episode already. 16 episode is really fast. :)

Actually i bought the drama to watch their chemistry lol not really the storyline

because after catching rooftop prince no other time travelling story can beat that already!

but the chemistry between yoo in na and ji hyun woo really gives goosebumps.

it really feels like they want to be together even on the drama set.
The story wasn't the main point but their love story was.

Whatever it is i really like it when love story have happy ending like this.

Lol but how often does it last. But they look really good together, i hope they will :D

Anyways, the OST is really good :D A lot of feel whenever i watch the drama. No matter how many times i hear it, i still go WAAAA whenever the song plays and their eyes meet :DDD

Just when i was thinking. 

OH NO NO ONE has uploaded the CAMP PHOTOS YET :O

i turned on fb & i see my lovely OGLs uploading them one by one AWW :D

How can we have such wonderful telepathy even. 

ZEN & i :) Most Zen & responsible ogl ever 

As usual, my comfort during camp :)

Hehe to the girl who had a tough time during camp. Should have done something for her

yay, my pretty cousin who was so sporting during the camp (: when she said she had fun, its all i need to hear.

with pretty val & sticky me at sentosa ! love my main comm tee

One more hugging shot. Last day of camp lol post camp syndrome

Hj my wonderful mate who is so bright and talented, ever supportive sy & est who is cool as ever :)

Okay there is so much to say where do i even start from ?

here it goes. I didn't even know how it all started from. I only remembered attending an interview to become OGL head without knowing what i'm heading for and only knowing that i had a great time in JC being an OGL but clueless about the role of an OGL head. What makes it worst was that, when the main comm was form, seriously i didn't even know them well. i mean yeah we have seen each other exchange words more than hi & byes, even been an OG together but never worked together before. And most of them were in the same tutorial group but not me. I was all alone from platoon 2 :<

Well well, so frankly, i wasn't very committed at first and since i didn't have task on my hand, i neglected the meetings and all. I only remembered helping out for fundraising for the camp. And that's it. only until the holidays arrived and my work attachment ended, i started panicking a little because i had to vet through 80 pages and 120pages of OGL handbook and Camp manual respectively. Before i can pass message down to my OGLS.I swear i think i memorise the programmes back to back and u can even pick any and ask me to recite them. LOL. carried out a dry run with less than half of the OGLs there as there was OCIP involvement and some Personal holiday time. Well well, didn't try out at the actual area and didnt teach the mass dance to the OGLs. But of course i did work before the camp started. Had to send important info to my OGLS, repeatedly update them the camp manual and informed them the changes that nobody reads HAHA. lol Splitting the 100 OGMs into groups and the OGLS too. Knowing which OGL are sub comm members so that they can help their respective comm in times of emergency, Knowing my OGM allergies or Absence of leave if necessary. There is just so many things to know. lol but we had a after action review and yes the planning was not thorough enough, the dry run should have been like an actual camp, the OGLS should have been better prepared, the atmosphere could have been more high. Yesh and due to our negligence we suffered at night during the camp. I slept for only 2hs for consective 2 days, i woke up with voice as hoarse as a man and my lips felt like it was bursting because it was so swollen due to the presence of 3 fucking big ulcers. I had to scream, be high and higher than anyone else to keep the camp going. I had to run around and make calls to make sure everyone is on the ball and the camp programmes will not be delayed. we had to give briefing till 3 in the morning because of last minute changes to programme timing and the lack of knowledge of the OGLs/ SM. We had bad times and pissed and angry moments & even embarrassing ones when one of our games failed so terribly and we had to change a MASS GAMES. we did it not once twice but many many times. We even prepared our night walk on the day itself- sourcing for DVD, finding the activities to be carried out, praying that OGLS know how to walk the correct route. Fail much. The finale night too, was last minute prepared. the Deco, the songs, the pinata, the cold war and disagreements. Well many things happened during that camp. If it hadn't we wouldnt have been able to become closer. I watch a friend of mine in admiration when she turned every moment of adversity into opportunity. She just said that we have to think fast enough. LOL i really didn't know how she did it. She knows how to hype the crowd, she knows how to speak in front of them. She just said that she is not such a person too, but she had to adapt to the environment and know what situation she is in. Well well, thats how fast she adapt. I learn so much from her :) i even grew from this. I mean like HEY i never ever taught a chereo in front of the crowd before. And yeap that night i taught 1/2 chereo which i believe was only 30seconds but i did it :D. under such stressful situations with so much responsibility at hands, i thought i was going to snap any time during the camp and lose my patience.

I think i almost lose it during one of the nights but i knew it wouldnt get us anywhere so i stopped being angry for the sake of being angry cause everyone is also angst too for the unsmooth journey. even though all this sounds like i had a terrible camp, i must say that we concealed it well. because we were the only ones suffering i'm glad the OGMS had all the good time because they deserved it. In the first place, if we had prepared well and stuck together to come up with a solution or daringly air our views about certain matters, it wouldn't have ended up this way. lol all in all, im very thankful that my fellow ogls are still a very responsible bunch and most importantly, they care for the freshies all the time without having me to remind them to do so. (: Also the main comm have been very very generous in lending their help whenever necessary and of course including me whenever possible. yesh i do feel alone at times during the camp because i do not have an og & no one to take photos with but at least i have my main comm and my forever welcoming sy & peapod :) hehe its even better to have friends there :D can't wait t become their coursemates in time to come :D i'm glad that i have the opportunity to not only bond with some freshies but more of my batch mates :)) Now i feel like HEY actually they are really not bad too although i hold doubts about them initially and i don't know know why i'm biased. sighs haha but its better now :)) becoming more outspoken and outgoing and opening up. NO more awkward conversations. (still have sometimes but feeling better) And its all worth it when at the end, people come up to tell me hey the camp was real fun :D or when your ogls text u to tell u how well u did (: it really made my day and gave me goosebumps when i read messages like this. They can bring me to tears u know. it makes me more motivated to take up events and planning in the future :D really fun omg . BUT YESH IT was hell tiring i felt like i put an entire sem's effort into this. Im so glad it turned out just fine :D 

Teehee, many epic and beautiful moments during the camp :D

Many first times, many heart felt conversations, many bickering with the girls, much fun and many photos taken (: many touching moments esp when they danced our chereo perfectly and did it way better than me last year.

It feels really great when u work really hard for something and the results in return is something really bigger than what you could ever imagine or contain. It makes me want to do more of this in the future, to experience more wonderful feelings like this in the future :)

Whatever it is, working hard, loving what i do and being happy & so i'm feeling really pretty = GOOD :D

Sorry for the 1000 words essay lol it was definitely unintended,

i couldn't contain my feelings anymore and it felt like it was going to overflow.

Finally, more time for the family :) 

i really miss my family & my house after being in school for 5 days. 

Lol, i don't think i can survive in hostel or overseas man lololol

Well well, gonna work out a full proof overseas plan next year

This times, theres nothing to stop me from discovering the world :D

Can't wait.

In the mean time, Conventus, the Big groove, first vetting, Matric fair will be happening next week :D

Maybe more meet ups with some individuals whom i have missed for so long ! (:

perhaps a short getaway? 

Hehe i really need energiser for now !