Alive

 Merchandise long queue hot sun

cafe latte

baby you belong to me

Alive for BB

With our pretty lightsticks

Free blue light bangle

 Yes. Its today.
28/9 its finally happening.
I couldn't feel the hype or atmosphere and even suspected i lost the craze and love i used to have for them.
4 years, LOL its neither a short nor long time but non of my r/s ever surpass this amount of time.
But yet it lasted for this group of boys/men/guys(cause to me they show all 3 characteristics) whom i known  pretty well enough yet i'm just a stranger or another fan to them. Maybe thats why admiring last cause u never know the result if the other party doesnt give you an answer. (:
Who cares what so ever,
i finally get to meet them today, tonight.
well i could see their faces so clearly and every single one of them looked better than on youtube videos.
their voices sounds real and way better live.
They play very well during concert and maintains professionalism i guess it comes with experience
Their music is DAMN good.
They are so cute real live too who cares who they really are in their personal lives
But this is the big bang ive seen 4 years ago and still seeing now :D
They have grown definitely, the change is obvious and effects are showing in the market over the 4 years.
They know what we want to see and they do it well so we love them more (:
I had FUN, Laughter, Tears, Sexy time and many random murmurings that my poor friends or random VIP have to endure. I practically lost control of myself cause i didn't know what i was babbling already.
I didn't know or recall what i said. Those are words i couldn't find if i watch it true dvd/ youtube videos.
Not only the concert was awesome the pre concert was a fun.

i had fun watching people put on extensions to resemble GD, we had tattoos on our necks, we took photos with our crown lightstick that i always always yearn to own one(coolest in the whole world ^^),we listened to samsung phone advertisement so that we could get free big bang merchandise , there were guys going around offering drinks to prevent dehydration, awesome and high company to watch with , going back with dear and friends and people giving out free banners .Lastly big bang fans are cool cause they dress really well with me as an exception ! anyways it made up for my not so good morning after reaching KLP at 9 for nothing and spending 5.50 for cafe latte which i didnt like at all. :/ and the pretty long wait not to mention the killer sun and the series of unfortunate events. But it was all worthwhile in the end. i swear i have never perspired this much in my lifetime. Everything was drenched head to toe and i feel like a giraffe after tonight. toned a lot of muscles in the event too. and soome VIPs were really great they offered to film the video for me cause maybe my armpit didnt smell that good or maybe i was pathetically vertically challenge in anyway he offered his service what a helping stranger !

the feeling was so overwhelming that i was moved to tears during haru haru. Top was really putting in a lot of effort for his injured right hand. Dae had the best smile i've ever seen from him. Tae was so generous with his body or should we say fan service and words. Ri was the cutest as usual, going around comfortably treating the stage as his home. My leader was the best rapper i've ever heard in my live i could feel the sincerity although i felt him shying away from the stage or sensed his lethargy or should i say lack of the GD-young boy-smile.

Tonight, such a beautiful night i felt like i was in heaven.
they are a bunch of bad boys and fantastic babies
saying last farewell gave me blues
but i'm feeling high high and i was knocked out

Post concert hyperventilating

NOTE: THIS IS PHOTO DOES NOT BELONG TO ME.

Anyways, i can't wait to get the latest 'Happy' collection from kikki.k . The designs are simply classy and beautiful.Totally. its so hard to resist (:

well  moving on, really want to try to be involved in next year's camp because i'm not choosing to go for any overseas or summer exchange trip YET. Can't wait for the experiences and opportunities lying ahead. Everything seems so interesting and i just want to experiment with all i could in my short 3 years stay :D so once again university life is pretty amazing.

well, but there   is always the tough part like  confidence issues, sensitivity and finding true friends.  All takes time and its part and parcel of the growing process i guess . Just have to self remind that i can't let my emotions go on a roller coaster ride all the time cause it takes a huge toll on my performance regardless academically or socially or anything. MOOD and feelings are just things that are not nice to play with. So HS learn to MAINTAIN. have a more calm and confident mind !

well i'm missing danzpeople already like super badly . not that i'm not enjoying dhopps i  love the feeling emitted from the people there its like welcoming me  to join a big family to welcome me to share my passion somewhat like nursing (:

whee he cant wait for the class tee and pullover design already!

and have i mention, i really love nua-ing at home on alternate thursdays. feels like a real good break  for me :D

last but no t least acted crazily, tore  my  A&P book into chapters for better revision purpose  . heat ache so badly i had my mum to do the execution for me. YAY swimming is starting all over again. wow can't wait to swim faster than before and feeeeeeel all the muscle aches again !

handled up my first official assignment. It was a tough nut to crack ma SWEATS. glad i didnt do last minute work u know  BUT errors are still prevalent everywhere -,-

About there, BIGBANG concert coming up soon.  should be more interesting by then !

cant wait to prick people's  finger this sat HAHAHAH :D

Lotus Flower Bomb

Finally found the music that Blast! used during their dance marathon. but so what, i didn't pass the auditions. AH-HA not that bad this time round. More accustomed to accepting failures during dance practices. feels like part and parcel of improving.

^ not my photo. its from facebook really cute really applicable.

Supposed to be sleeping now but can't seem to get a matter off my mind. its annoying but hard to put it to words. how should i say. When someone criticizes me i hate it (not the person but the matter or action of doing it) genuinely hate it or triggers my anger button because it hurts my pride? i know it yet you have to amplify it? i don't need u to teach me how to do my things? u are someone i hold dearly to? i feel embarrass ? or because i'm finding excuses for myself and trying to hide the matter beneath the blankets? yeah. all this should be the reasons why i was feeling depressed, unconfident, angry, ridiculous, skeptical. I question the motive for the criticism. Is it the truthfully wanting the best intentions for me to change for the better or simply just ranting and my matter just gave you the best opportunity to do so. And how much criticism is healthy dose? I guess its Subjective and depends on what matter it is. But if I actually felt quite insulted by the harsh remarks used does that mean the criticism has gone overboard? What if its because of the criticism plus other actions that someone did that made me decision biased? Its often questions like this that i never anticipate hits me and i go nuts trying to find an answer that would be fair for both parties. Its like the RIGHT or WRONG question i once mentioned. Who draws the line and be the judge to tell u if you have gone too far overboard of fine? Theres no law in two people's relation with one another. Just how much would one sacrifice compromise or even change just so as the bond between them never gets broken even if the change seems unreasonable or simply NO reason for them to do so. whoops jumping from criticism to change.
Well typing this doesn't give me any answer but it kinds of sort out my thoughts better and more importantly deposit these feelings in this chunk of words that hold them as secret so i don't have to carry an extra burden with me till similar incident occurs and remind me of this again. So i guess the answer wouldn't be coming from me alone cause it has to depend on the other party too.

whoo its a FRIDAY tomorrow! my class ladies are playing BBALL !

So looking forward to the weekends. Feel like i need some exercising and stretching.
well, Nursing's awesome cause i can't can't wait for the SUMMER EXCHANGE PROGRAMS + OCIP TRIPS :> At least i got dhopps and danzpeople for now -satisfied- :}

Forgot to give special mention to my all time favourite GD (:
well that talented man just released two really awesome music. SWAG+STYLE (: rare to hear his smexy voice in That xx plus his super attitude yet addictive rap in One of a kind. why does he keep getting better only? tried not to be bias but this two songs are really good high standard hahas. love his crazy mv as always :D and his grins that never gets exhaustive. (: strive to improve like him :D