oh my goodness.
See another month flew past.
i can hardly recall what i have done for the past month
except for the endless pain and ugly smiles i have been suffering for weeks.
Anyways its all over ad good once again.
Hi june.
Whoosh looks like my 8 month vacation is coming to an end soon.
Have i done what i wanted to do?
i guess so. Most of them are already in progress.
and the progress is especially tough to watch. even after taking the brave step out
much courage and confidence is needed to bring me through the times. whoo still learning how to cope with those unwanted stress. tough i dislike it.makes me queasy and nervous and all tight up.i dont want it to become like guitar. it was supposed to be something i really love and enjoy doing thats what i want to keep in mind!(: keep the goal in mind and somehow or so by the end of 2 months i will be able to reach it. just wait and watch :D
After the kiddo camp, i kind of freak myself out.
I used to think i love kids. Like every single part of them be it naughty or annoying.
But i was so wrong. i do love kids but only those who doesnt misbehave.
i never see this strict part of me coming.
i guess it was something that was instilled in me during the 8 months when i was working towards my every goal. i became more decisive than ever and stricter ,serious and discipline with myself and cant really tolerate any imperfection now. not to the very extreme extent but it was definitely different from the past when i gave up on setting standards that could never be met.i feel the need to live everyday meaningfully and worth remembering so i get tired all the time but at least i know i wasnt wasting time.
so my braces set up would be complete by this weekend like FINALLY.
it was a long process man. so maybe one would like to reconsider before committing because for me it wasnt that easy as i thought afterall. its so much more than fitting those silver brackets onto the teeth to realign them.tough choicebut wont turn back nor regret :> not my style to give up hahahaha.
and so maybe theres a chance to go on vacation to neighbouring countries with peers.
but it has to be given more thoughts. and sometimes i wonder if its worth it to spend my hard earn money on vacation one shot. or many shopping trips plus dance lessons instead. Maybe the heartache would be less and the reaps in return is much significant. continue pondering.
so glad that my finance is in good and tight control! my budget plan worked for the month. felt so proud of this tiny achievement. of course striking the balance between spending and saving who wouldn't love it money issues are now off my 'troubles' list and that makes hs a happier person right :D
really wanted to sign up for scrapbooking classes and i thought the golden opportunity arrived when ml & i made a trip down to paper market. BUT i guess we were too late. we missed the deal :< haha but its alright such chances would come again and its causes less strain on my budget too. plus there are more things to worry right now like which camps to go, scholarship interview,btt test and swimming bm. GOODNESS. breaking out into cold sweat and thats JUNE for me. when everyone gets to play out at beaches or relax i have to gear myself up and keep improving -theres no such thing called rest- hahaha.
still i cant wait to get pass all this :> i get stronger everytime a month passed. (:
love how polaroids make us prettier hahaha makes the photo more appealing to watch !
anyways thanks to them i met so many children whom i never thought will met in my life.
thanks to them, i learn how to lead a live i want and a correct one. they make me a better person and they taught me so much that i could have never know. they are like a extended family whom gives me strength whenever i feel rebellious or ill in the heart.
cant wait to catch the hp exhibition and gardens by the bay !!!! maybe june aint that bad afterall :D plus spiderman is coming soon! OH MAN :>
whoo wanna make a special mention ! another 3/4 year with ml wifey.
which means we are 10 years school mates :D whooo so glad i can watch her find the right man HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :D this people makes me fall in love with chinese all over again and make my tummy ache over retarded things that never cross my mind :Dand they have beautiful pure kind hearts that is hard to be found. u will feel cared & love around them : >
and now i shall go back to practicing my love (:
