Just a kiss

Find me a dream, can you make one for me?

I need a motivation !

its badly needed.

im thirsting for it.

its been a long time since i ever tried hard for something

this time important as it is, but maybe its the people or the failures or the disturbance or my lacking self discipline or my never-reaching goals or my aimless future.

For once i find no purpose in studying.

i know its essential for future but like its something unattainable or somewhat far away

i cant feel the sense of urgency.

someone has to pull me out of this or save me.

i need an environment that arouses my competitive spirit

without being put down again and again

cause im tired of trying so

i succumb to distractions -dong yi, guitar, sleep

so as to avoid all the work but i know i will love it when i get in tune with it soon again

i need my co enzyme, my catalyst ,someone who trust me or have faith in me, someone to push / scold or force me.

cause i really hate myself like this :(

0 motivations useless and unhappy

the more i plunge into leisure activities, the greater the pang of guilt.

it feels better releasing this guilt

but its useless if nothing is done.

i shall wake up at 6 tomorrow! to complete CHEM :}

hear the alarm please !!!

im having itchy nose grrrr! SNEEZE ><

im fine ;)

listen to Dong Yi's ost tracks cause they are really great.

the drama's catchy too. haha.

shall end off with my recent craze : Lady Ant. Just a kiss

sweetest lyrics you ever hear :D

Lying here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings
When it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile~

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight~

Fiction

Playnation's awesome place next time must bring friends along !

o god

recently good movies are pouring in !

im worrying for my time and money DISCIPLINE HS :(

haha.

eh CHEM CHEM CHEM REMEDIAL

bye !

my bio cher is so nice today ~

ah tan, shee & ed wheee miss them ttm :D

JQ is such a loving bitching partner. lol we talk nicely :)

27th come soon ^^

Guitar concert

^ class peeps with nice hearts :D

of course theres some more !

^tickets sold all 8 :D

In a nutshell,

Guitar Concert yesterday it was the best night of my live.

i went home at a crazy time of 1:16 am.

Obviously, i got reprimanded quite badly

but it was inevitable !

the massive group of us hog the entire stretch of tables at simpang (?)

as we dug into our pratas and drinks after the operation for the day.

it was the prettiest ending, the sweetest one , the one without any regrets

everyone brought a smile home with them.

we showed off well on stage

The audience made it perfect,

our members were high spirited

we were a bonded ensem

for the first time i understood the term one large ensemble, we sound as one.

that feeling of contentment overflowing, heart exploding, tears spilling, tight hugs explains what i felt yesterday :)

It was a perfect piece of memory.

Now im still feeling upset that we wont get to play as one together anymore !

thank you tj guitar ensemble :D

i owe it all to u .

wonderful people

and chang and yq who came all the way down to support :D

Today i woke up thinking it was all a dream.

a beautiful one.

ARGH but i wasted an entire day doing I DONT KNOW WHAT

cause i couldn't even account for the hours i have wasted

My life's still in a mess

after guitar officially ended.

we still have camp and hustings o god.

and i have yet found my drive my momentum to start studying

One month is nothing compared to those who already started

and here i am still wasting my time pondering over trivial and insignificant past events.

looks like my extra cme lessons today have yet set an effect on me ! ;x

tomorrow will be a brand new start

it will be.

i wanna end my tj life with a pretty fullstop with A's on my cert :D

put in hard work already will u if u know u are slower and dumber than any individual in TJ !

yeah someone just got to knock it into my head

i need a wake up call!

before i forget ;)

Avril is damn pretty

crystal treated me to a free ticket to her concert !

short it maybe but her voice owns it all

be it old all new

her vocals swept everyone present there that night :D

i never knew she could sing that well and she's cute

hehe.

All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Oh yeah meeting my sec school mates soon :D

i really want to see them

need to know how they are doing

need to find my chinese speaking mates back

its uncomfortable when i dont speak it for a long time .

IM SO GONNA HUG SHEE SHEE when i see that pretty lady

of course yan mei will be hugged too :>

i know she wants it hehehehehehee

I MISS THEM SO MUCH. k hope wk will be there too :}

oh yeah tuesday with cousins is gonna be a blast :D

of course PLAY HARD i will work equally HARD :D

i need fel !

if she weren't a girl i wouldn't mind spending my entire life with her :)

its scary how u can find someone so identical to u.

be it our shoe size, our height, our taste in guys

and how we would sms each other to ask the same thing

how we would wear the same top out

we are so damn alike.

amazing uh. haha

everytime i step into the class, i feel like the kind side of me just cant help but show itself.

everyone seemed to transform into their nice-self

i really love that feeling.

But u know whenever i leave that room,

the evil world and evil distractions cant maintain my kind side for long

soon i succumb back to that lazy self of me.

my messy room, handwriting, low productivity show signs of my reals self that i really dislike

its hard like you said to be nice and follow rules all the time

and when that fails

my mood fails too ;(

im still in search of my lost good habits

and have yet found it.

but i will find it.

i believe u will lead me to the answer ;)

i cant get enough of adam levine's sexy voice. haha

its my dear xing's b'dae tomorrow !

i really admire her and love her for who she is ;)

she's amazing friend of mine.

glad i know her i will cherish it well :)