Climax

These tunes keep replaying in my mind ~

pink try & usher's climax 

i love leory's version. guess its the sound of the acoustic guitar and his voice.

the lyrics are super emotional, but i am not. Somehow i love how sad it sounds very real, very applicable. EKKKK why can't i just love happier songs.

Going nowhere fast we've reached the climax

We're together now we undone

wont commit so we choose to run away

do we separate

dont wanna give in so we both gave up

wont take it back its to late we reach the climax

 -------Climax, Usher

The title is apt for what i'm going through now.

I guess its the climax of semester 1 now because i'm in the midst of my first university exams.

And so i was like ah, this is what a university exams look like.

I can't help but compare with those that i have seen in movies. Feels (atmosphere) is roughly the same but looks far worse than on screen. It's different from jc and secondary school. Same tables, chairs and arrangement but there is more implants of caucasian now haha ! Alright i'm just kidding but it does alter the atmosphere of the exams. And in university we are able to wear slippers to exams. Okay i don't know why i'm so particular about the footwear but it doesn't feel very important when you wear slippers you know. Like it ain't serious enough for you to dress properly. Anyways, the important thing is that 2 papers down and 2 more to go! Well truthfully, i really want to do well but it is too tough to gauge. Nevermind 26th december will soon arrive we'll see what can be done in future. :D 

And post exams, i guess i will be hitting a greater climax.

I've got A WEEK (only) to play. Like really play. i've work pretty hard for the past 14 weeks and so i deserve the rest. :D May not have done an awesome job but i put in mostly my best and it was a good feeling with no regrets ! Up till now i think its true that things works best when its in controlled. Enjoy that feeling ~ 

And so to make my play more interesting i have diligently done my homework and thinking to what i wanna achieve during this holidays. HAHA so hs, hate to take breaks. shall share maybe it inspires us to relax in such manner too! So, thanks to friends recommendations and bloggers update, it has successfully made me adamant to hunt for good food this holidays. maybe after tasting good food, i would be motivate to make them one day! So input and no output is no good cause it isn't balance right. I have learnt we need 3-5h a week for moderate intense exercise. Since swimming aint possible now and yoga is coming to an end soon :'( i think i can only rely on jogging and dance :> i absolutely can't wait. Can u sense my excitement while i'm typing this cause i've missed dance for 2-3 weeks and my body feels like a robot. Climbing stairs at kr mrt is a toll for me . i can feel my thighs loose and my gluteus maximus getting to maximum size each day :'( And retail therapy is a cure for my exam trauma and so many movies that i need to catch ! i hope my allowance is sufficient to tahan these expenditure!! Yippee and gathering catching up and outings for chilling. sounds like a plan baby ~ :D OOOO and touch my guitar !!! shall keep the excitement going. Wow the years coming to an end again! Ze me kuai!!!!!!!!! 

Funny how the heart can be so deceiving 

More than just a couple of times

Why do we fall in love easy

Even when its not right

---------try, Pink

Now playing : A thousand years part 2, its my trailer for breaking dawn part 2.which means its guitar time again!! I heard its good, hope it will be cause the movies have been disappointing for me so far :/ giving it once last chance . 

Little things

Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me 
but bear this mind it was meant to be 
and i'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
and it all makes sense to me

i know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile, 
you've never loved your stomach or your thighs 
the dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine 
But i'll love them endlessly 

I won't let this little things slip out of my mouth 
But if i do, it's you, oh it's you, they add up to 
i'm in love with you and all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
and all those conversations are the secrets that i keep 
though it makes no sense to me 

i know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape 
you never want to know how much you weigh 
you still have to squeeze into your jeans
but you're perfect to me 

i won't let this little things slips out of my mouth
But if it's true, it's you, it's you, they add up to
I'm in love with you and all these little things 

you never love yourself half as much as i love you 
you'll never treat yourself right darling but i want you to 
if i let you know, i'm here for you
maybe you'll love yourself like i love you oh

i've just let these little things slips out of my mouth 
because it's you, oh it's you, it's you they add up to 
and i'm in love with you (all these little things) 
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth 
but if it's true, it's you, it's you they add up to 
I'm in love with you, and all your little things.

Although it isn't written in the asian context cause we've got less/no freckles and the absence of crinkles but i get the gist of it. 
And its really thoughtful when someone gets reminded of you when they chance upon such music. :')

okay, on the downside.
im procrastinating. oh damn oh damn.
After self pampering i hope my heart and mind would work hand in hand for the week ahead.
Its the finals for sem 1.
And Hs you can't lose it alright!
gambateh
Gonna keep fit after the exams, can't stand my body shape now (all lose and flaccid  -.-)
Shall not blabber too much cause this post is dedicated to the one whom intro-ed the song to me 
:)

NINETEEN

This was supposed to be posted on my birthdate.
But university life and academic datelines kept me busy till now.
So warning : i'm lazy to split this post into several posts. So i shall me clumped it here with my oh so awesome summarising skills. So, i'm sorry if everything sounds so insincere and touch-and-go. U know feelings and memories fade -impermanence- with time but i can assure my loved ones that the moment of bliss was truly felt and sincerely appreciated with gratitude in my heart if i weren't able to express it well enough with my inept vocab or expressions :)

25/10 Thurs :
Celebrated my early birthday dinner with da braker and a wifey. :')
Never fail to laugh like a hysterical lady with them :D
The view that night was awesome.
and the shopping with wifey too. A pity my other half wasn't there.
But it's sufficient to see most of their faces even after 2 years after graduating from dmn!
You know the feeling of meeting old pals feeling all comfortable and warmed-up all over again.

26/10Fri:
Had our inaugural steamboat at pearl's house. Was shopping for ingredients in the morning like aunties :D Hmm got to improve on my culinary skills if not don't need to jia chu qu le! and i learnt how to appreciate my mummy's fine culinary skills after this xD
Finally, i spent my vouchers at kikki k with sy ! :D i must say thanks for some advices. Still working on it still figuring things out and it really depends on my mood sometimes. HAHA.
Afterwards, visited my aunt at the hospital. okay i must say its not very nice to be applying my nursing skills during the hospital visit. but i paid attention to the oxygen therapy, nasogastric tube feeding, pressure ulcers, embolism stockings when i was in the room. I'm amazed at how applicable my nursing clinical skills are and i actually felt a sensed of relieved. of course i had to step out of my comfort zone to provide some form of care. So with my lack knowledge and experience, my only form of support for my aunt was to apply moisturiser which would maintain her skin integrity. i believe therapeutic touch does help. Even though she's gone but i believe, she left well. Her departure reminds me how fragile our lives can be and i realise that i'm starting to worry at every little thing thats happening around me thats beyond my control. Instead maybe i should be grabbing on any opportunity available to make the best out of adversity.

27/10Sat:
And so instead of receiving, i had a feeling that i had to reciprocate these fortunate givings to someone else and not be the one receiving endlessly. HAHA and i'm so glad i found a way to pass on these kindness from others by volunteering . So coincidentally, nusbs had a volunteer event on saturday. I don't know what pushed me to sign up for the event on my own. I guessed i really wanted to do something more meaningful. Lol i almost regretted when we gathered at eunos to find out that we are delivering the food items to boon lay and so that means i have to train home from boon lay when the event ends. After manually dragging/ carrying/lifting the food items to the nearest carpark or flat, i swear my biceps/ triceps/ extensors/ flexor or whatever muscles you can find on my body increased in tone. haha but physical suffering actually made me feel that i place in effort during the entire event .

Amazing that i could still met dear to get a hair cut together.
That night there was an ongoing dans festival at esplanade.
At first i thought i had to go down alone. But my dear miraculously could go out on a sat night so why not.
We or maybe only me enjoyed the music and the lessons
but still so shy to move ! :x
Lol took photo with 'GAHO' too  :D

Sun:
i think i was re-organizing and studying and i came across A SUPER SUPER Long word. I bet it isnt a word. So amazed by it cause i tried to pronounce it for 3x?

29/10 mon:
In short its school with sy and pearl >> dear >> Tut 2 (dont like calling tut 2 too formal leh ) >> surprise visit from fel :') >> Dance plus my dear jia ying xD >> family.
What could be better than this right. Being able to see all my cherished and loved ones in a day (:
so celebrating or growing old may not be a bad thing afterall cause i get to pause to see and hear from my dear ones once again in the midst of my busy life and that gives me a lot a lot of strength. I DONT MIND GROWING OLDER EVERYDAY. :>

31/10 wed:
I shall make a special mention as it was my last dance lesson in nus FOR THE SEM & we had audition for an item next year. (: yeap i can't wait for practice to commence already :D. get to know some of dance mates even better !! and perform on stage for the first time?? unsure if that might actually happen because my mum is kind of not kind of BUT REALLY against it. still, hs won't let such golden opportunity past right by alright. >:D REBEL hs revive again.

1/11 thurs:
Oh man, it was time for poster submission. personally, this is a pretty significant event as it marks the end of our IPE project with the pharmacy students. initially, i was hesitant and skeptical of our capabilities and whether this would actually work out. Plus you know my over-paranoid- brain would stress me consistently and worry me till no end and general stereotypes did hindered my perceptions towards them. When the project ended, i actually missed them. haha i enjoyed working with them even if they didn't. And in fact there was a lot to thank them for. if not for them, mj and i would prolly be lost sheeps still 'mehh-ing' away. so i was glad it ended well regardless of the result we receive. Up till now we haven't deleted the 'the seal project' group you know xD.

fast forward to 5/11(week 12):
haha very wonderful to have dear going to school and back home with me cause our timetable are in sync. AND its damn rare. So i was actually PARANOID again for his over acting kindness. bad habit hs. haha sometimes i should just TAKE IT AS IT IS and not think so much or make ridiculous self assumption yea. Anyway it was grateful how he waited for me for dance to end, how he intro-ed makisan and we still haven't decide on our vans. GRRRRRRRR. well, great time spent. No over attachment no over attachment

Another significant milestone for me! had our second Fon pratical test. WHOOHOOHOO.
This time i was arranged to be in the first slot.
Guess what i love the first slot. less waiting time and in fact i felt less anxious as compared to the previous times. :D went off to meet mama and family <3 p="p">
and today was awesome quality time spent again :D with complete circle of datrololol with wk! except for dua pai jq !!!!!! pissed but its alright still got wifey number 2 birthday :D. love coco such adorable little thing i feel like owning one too. I will be a bad pet owner as i can forsee :O awesome time, aweseome company and awesome cake !!!! whee can't wait for holiday with them . This time im not going to miss it no matter what !

And Oh no i'm falling in love with song jong ki and i do not know why.
i just find him so damn cute and irresistible to watch!!!

OH my goodness so long o_O HEHE but i feel good already.
I pray for good health and smiles for everybody wheeeee~
will be back when final ca's are over :D
miss ya and miss me !
Love, shan